Sunday
I learned two things today. The first, I have to eat a little something at breakfast and I need to drink more water to keep me full during the day.
The second thing I learned was this I do not know my Bible very well. We are studying the book of John in big church and the lesson today was Jesus going into the temple and his anger over what was going on. Gary lead us to Ezekiel and the Glory of the Lord leaving the temple because of the sin of men and a nation.
I find it very scary that in all my years in church I have never to my knowledge be taught any thing out of Ezekiel. What a powerful book. My favorite verses in chapter 1:25-28
25 Then there came a voice from above the expanse over their heads as they stood with lowered wings. 26 Above the expanse over their heads was what looked like a throne of sapphire, [f] and high above on the throne was a figure like that of a man. 27 I saw that from what appeared to be his waist up he looked like glowing metal, as if full of fire, and that from there down he looked like fire; and brilliant light surrounded him. 28 Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him.
This was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD. When I saw it, I fell facedown, and I heard the voice of one speaking.
Do you realize that until Jesus went into that temple the Glory of the LORD had not been there since His Glory left it in the book of Ezekiel and that God's Glory would never again be put back into a temple made of stone but instead would be in men. See John 2:12-24
12After this he went down to Capernaum with his mother and brothers and his disciples. There they stayed for a few days.
13When it was almost time for the Jewish Passover, Jesus went up to Jerusalem. 14In the temple courts he found men selling cattle, sheep and doves, and others sitting at tables exchanging money. 15So he made a whip out of cords, and drove all from the temple area, both sheep and cattle; he scattered the coins of the money changers and overturned their tables. 16To those who sold doves he said, "Get these out of here! How dare you turn my Father's house into a market!"
17His disciples remembered that it is written: "Zeal for your house will consume me."[b]
18Then the Jews demanded of him, "What miraculous sign can you show us to prove your authority to do all this?"
19Jesus answered them, "Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days."
20The Jews replied, "It has taken forty-six years to build this temple, and you are going to raise it in three days?" 21But the temple he had spoken of was his body. 22After he was raised from the dead, his disciples recalled what he had said. Then they believed the Scripture and the words that Jesus had spoken.
23Now while he was in Jerusalem at the Passover Feast, many people saw the miraculous signs he was doing and believed in his name.[c] 24But Jesus would not entrust himself to them, for he knew all men. 25He did not need man's testimony about man, for he knew what was in a man.
Reading all this scriptures made we think did the Jews even know that God's presences was gone from the Holy of Holies? Did they even care? I don't think they did but I also think they're ignorant for all the things they have done to get to this place where they did not care if God's presences was there or not.
But you see the distance in time and an good bit of holier than thou self righteousness has numbed me to the truth that We the people are no better. I am the Temple of the Living God and His Glory is within me and I am to be a living sacrifice for Him. Sin is sin and redemption is grace no matter when in history it occurs.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Days 9 and 10
I am putting two days together because these last two days were you know kinda well, let's just say it, not interesting, boring, lacking in ahha moments.
Friday did have a I would think almost sad moment. I forgot to eat a meal. I remembered sitting at the kid's school "Oh you didn't eat breakfast" Well crap when did I fall this far, you know fat girls don't miss many meals and we sure don't forget to eat them that is a totally sick skinny girl thing to do.
I would have to guess That is God moving in and the desire to fill up moving somewhere else.
Just for kicks I weighed on Tuesday or Wednesday and the I weighed again Friday and I was down 6 lbs. Wow, now I have to make sure that this does not become ( in my mind) a diet. This is about fasting for LIFE not weight.
Saturday
Early morning basketball had to be there a 7:30 yawn!!!! and coming off a late night 12:30am makes for a long day add into that a search for shower gift, 2 hour volleyball practice (I am Jason helper coach) go to shower,then drive to Bentonville to visit in laws and then fix my supper and I am the only one left standing. Kinda funny but does make you wonder at what else will change for me. This is strange because I am without question the most tired person in our family and need the most rest. I did feel the need to rest today but not that "I have to crash now or some one will die kinda need". So that was really neat to know within my self that I made it on a LOT fewer calories today than I would normally intake and I made it through the day much better.
You want to know the biggest pain about not eating with everyone else is.It's the ease of just getting something quick to eat. I know the in laws don't know what to do with me and the fast because they felt weird eating with me sitting there with no food. I just don't have the desire to eat "food" so sitting with people eating food is not a problem. The problem is fixing stir fry a 9:30 at night. But I did and it was good so glad I made the effort.
Well I guess I was wrong the days weren't without some ah ha moments, they just weren't all spiritual.
Friday did have a I would think almost sad moment. I forgot to eat a meal. I remembered sitting at the kid's school "Oh you didn't eat breakfast" Well crap when did I fall this far, you know fat girls don't miss many meals and we sure don't forget to eat them that is a totally sick skinny girl thing to do.
I would have to guess That is God moving in and the desire to fill up moving somewhere else.
Just for kicks I weighed on Tuesday or Wednesday and the I weighed again Friday and I was down 6 lbs. Wow, now I have to make sure that this does not become ( in my mind) a diet. This is about fasting for LIFE not weight.
Saturday
Early morning basketball had to be there a 7:30 yawn!!!! and coming off a late night 12:30am makes for a long day add into that a search for shower gift, 2 hour volleyball practice (I am Jason helper coach) go to shower,then drive to Bentonville to visit in laws and then fix my supper and I am the only one left standing. Kinda funny but does make you wonder at what else will change for me. This is strange because I am without question the most tired person in our family and need the most rest. I did feel the need to rest today but not that "I have to crash now or some one will die kinda need". So that was really neat to know within my self that I made it on a LOT fewer calories today than I would normally intake and I made it through the day much better.
You want to know the biggest pain about not eating with everyone else is.It's the ease of just getting something quick to eat. I know the in laws don't know what to do with me and the fast because they felt weird eating with me sitting there with no food. I just don't have the desire to eat "food" so sitting with people eating food is not a problem. The problem is fixing stir fry a 9:30 at night. But I did and it was good so glad I made the effort.
Well I guess I was wrong the days weren't without some ah ha moments, they just weren't all spiritual.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Day Eight
Well the funny for today is this: Jason got home this morning. Yeah! Picked Kathryn up from school and asked about home work and HEHEHEHHE she had homework in very class. See God does love me!!!! So
I press on with the Fast because God is for me so who can be against me.
Heard this last night on KLRC you might need a little funny in your life.
This man had been married for many years to a very bossy women. He went away on a trip and got the nerve to see a therapist. The Therapist tells him he needs to take back his position as the "man" in the family.
So he gets home and tells his wife to fix him a 7 course meal, followed by a BIG dessert. After he ate his large meal, he told her to go draw him a bath so that he can relax. When this very happy well feed and relaxed man got out of his bath he told his wife to dress him. TO which she said "I am sorry dear I don't do that, that's the mortician's job."
I press on with the Fast because God is for me so who can be against me.
Heard this last night on KLRC you might need a little funny in your life.
This man had been married for many years to a very bossy women. He went away on a trip and got the nerve to see a therapist. The Therapist tells him he needs to take back his position as the "man" in the family.
So he gets home and tells his wife to fix him a 7 course meal, followed by a BIG dessert. After he ate his large meal, he told her to go draw him a bath so that he can relax. When this very happy well feed and relaxed man got out of his bath he told his wife to dress him. TO which she said "I am sorry dear I don't do that, that's the mortician's job."
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Day seven
I know that this fast is helping me already.
Jason has been in Houston and I am to be incharge of homework in his absence. Yeah me I don't do math well, I prayed to be delivered from this mess and I asked the Math teacher at Conferences last TH to not give home work next week while Jason "the math man was gone".
You know what? God kept that man form giving us homework. You would know this is a miracle because this man gives lots of homework every night. Not only did the math teacher not give homework, none of the other teachers did either.
All of my kids yes all three have been homework free all week. I am sayin Thank you Jesus and pass the fruits and veggies I can DO this!
Thought #2
What if this fast is really about the food? What if God is using this fast to bring my food under His control. What if I am told to never eat meat again? What if this is how I am to eat from now on. Ok but I will need milk. What if this mean I can eat Real people food again,but in a smaller and smarter way? See what I mean God in control of food changes everything and in every way that I live.
For right now in the first few days the fast is about the food and what God whats to reveal to me about what food means to me and what the absences of "desired" food can do to bring me to my knees.
Do I crave God presence and much as I crave food?
Nope I don't, but I will.
Jason has been in Houston and I am to be incharge of homework in his absence. Yeah me I don't do math well, I prayed to be delivered from this mess and I asked the Math teacher at Conferences last TH to not give home work next week while Jason "the math man was gone".
You know what? God kept that man form giving us homework. You would know this is a miracle because this man gives lots of homework every night. Not only did the math teacher not give homework, none of the other teachers did either.
All of my kids yes all three have been homework free all week. I am sayin Thank you Jesus and pass the fruits and veggies I can DO this!
Thought #2
What if this fast is really about the food? What if God is using this fast to bring my food under His control. What if I am told to never eat meat again? What if this is how I am to eat from now on. Ok but I will need milk. What if this mean I can eat Real people food again,but in a smaller and smarter way? See what I mean God in control of food changes everything and in every way that I live.
For right now in the first few days the fast is about the food and what God whats to reveal to me about what food means to me and what the absences of "desired" food can do to bring me to my knees.
Do I crave God presence and much as I crave food?
Nope I don't, but I will.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Day six
The day did progress into better food. Thankfully!
The question came to me out of the blue today; What do you want out of this fast?
Revelation and the answer is this.. I want to have a new relationship with food. I want to be full and not starving moments after the meal is over. I am praying that God will do something with me in this area.
Also I wondered when the first fast in the Bible was.
The first mention of a man fasting was in 2nd Samuel 12. David was fasting in hopes that God would "change His mind" and let son live. This is not the first fast though the Hebrews had practiced fasting over the years.
Moses fasted with God for Forty days Exodus 34:28 So he was there with the LORD forty days and forty nights; he did not eat bread or drink water. And he wrote on the tablets the words of the covenant, the Ten Commandments.
Do you know of any that are sooner than these? If you do please send them to me.
The question came to me out of the blue today; What do you want out of this fast?
Revelation and the answer is this.. I want to have a new relationship with food. I want to be full and not starving moments after the meal is over. I am praying that God will do something with me in this area.
Also I wondered when the first fast in the Bible was.
The first mention of a man fasting was in 2nd Samuel 12. David was fasting in hopes that God would "change His mind" and let son live. This is not the first fast though the Hebrews had practiced fasting over the years.
Moses fasted with God for Forty days Exodus 34:28 So he was there with the LORD forty days and forty nights; he did not eat bread or drink water. And he wrote on the tablets the words of the covenant, the Ten Commandments.
Do you know of any that are sooner than these? If you do please send them to me.
Morning News flash
New flash:
Oatmeal with out sugar is yucky,gross,bleckie,nasty, vomitous just plain ol wrong and to add insult to injury the banana I ate to get the nasty taste out of my mouth was hard and bruised. Wrong Wrong Wrong, guess I will be eating just plain fruit from now on.
Oatmeal with out sugar is yucky,gross,bleckie,nasty, vomitous just plain ol wrong and to add insult to injury the banana I ate to get the nasty taste out of my mouth was hard and bruised. Wrong Wrong Wrong, guess I will be eating just plain fruit from now on.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Day Five
A unique thing happened tonight I was fixing the kids supper and I need to see if the food was hot enough. I would normally just take a little nibble. Paused a moment to think how am I going to do this, then I asked Kathryn to take the bit instead. New moments very day.
Old habits die hard at least I didn't adhere to the Bill Clinton rule about not inhaling. " I did not eat I just inhaled" and quite frankly my bean soup and blue corn tortillas was better than the chicken, but I sure could have inhaled the rest of that mac and cheese.
I was reading about Daniel and Darius friendship today. I was so struck at Darius's distress of having to put Daniel in the lion's den. This is more than a king and his advisor. Here are the Versus in the NIV.
16 So the king gave the order, and they brought Daniel and threw him into the lions' den. The king said to Daniel, "May your God, whom you serve continually, rescue you!"
17 A stone was brought and placed over the mouth of the den, and the king sealed it with his own signet ring and with the rings of his nobles, so that Daniel's situation might not be changed. 18 Then the king returned to his palace and spent the night without eating and without any entertainment being brought to him. And he could not sleep.
19 At the first light of dawn, the king got up and hurried to the lions' den. 20 When he came near the den, he called to Daniel in an anguished voice, "Daniel, servant of the living God, has your God, whom you serve continually, been able to rescue you from the lions?"
21 Daniel answered, "O king, live forever! 22 My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions. They have not hurt me, because I was found innocent in his sight. Nor have I ever done any wrong before you, O king."
23 The king was overjoyed and gave orders to lift Daniel out of the den. And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.
24 At the king's command, the men who had falsely accused Daniel were brought in and thrown into the lions' den, along with their wives and children. And before they reached the floor of the den, the lions overpowered them and crushed all their bones.
resolve,Strength, and FAITH
I am tired and cold so I am going to take a hot shower, go to bed with no TV.
Goodnight friends
Old habits die hard at least I didn't adhere to the Bill Clinton rule about not inhaling. " I did not eat I just inhaled" and quite frankly my bean soup and blue corn tortillas was better than the chicken, but I sure could have inhaled the rest of that mac and cheese.
I was reading about Daniel and Darius friendship today. I was so struck at Darius's distress of having to put Daniel in the lion's den. This is more than a king and his advisor. Here are the Versus in the NIV.
16 So the king gave the order, and they brought Daniel and threw him into the lions' den. The king said to Daniel, "May your God, whom you serve continually, rescue you!"
17 A stone was brought and placed over the mouth of the den, and the king sealed it with his own signet ring and with the rings of his nobles, so that Daniel's situation might not be changed. 18 Then the king returned to his palace and spent the night without eating and without any entertainment being brought to him. And he could not sleep.
19 At the first light of dawn, the king got up and hurried to the lions' den. 20 When he came near the den, he called to Daniel in an anguished voice, "Daniel, servant of the living God, has your God, whom you serve continually, been able to rescue you from the lions?"
21 Daniel answered, "O king, live forever! 22 My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions. They have not hurt me, because I was found innocent in his sight. Nor have I ever done any wrong before you, O king."
23 The king was overjoyed and gave orders to lift Daniel out of the den. And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.
24 At the king's command, the men who had falsely accused Daniel were brought in and thrown into the lions' den, along with their wives and children. And before they reached the floor of the den, the lions overpowered them and crushed all their bones.
resolve,Strength, and FAITH
I am tired and cold so I am going to take a hot shower, go to bed with no TV.
Goodnight friends
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Day four
Stock tips: Buy Beano and gas X and dump the Exlax and metamucil. This is gona be a bumpy ride folks:0)
Thoughts on the day: I find it so amazing how much stronger I am when I function inside God's will for me. I don't have a problem watching other people eat food. I can tell that they feel strange eating in front of me.
DO NOT FEEL STRANGE, PLEASE EAT!!!! GOD has given me the strength to enjoy you and your food.
My Friend Amy Hannon gave me a recipe that I am going to fix tomorrow night.
Black bean soup
3 cans black beans
2 cans corn
1 can Rotel
1 clove garlic or to your taste
Dump the entire can in pot and cook
Thoughts on the day: I find it so amazing how much stronger I am when I function inside God's will for me. I don't have a problem watching other people eat food. I can tell that they feel strange eating in front of me.
DO NOT FEEL STRANGE, PLEASE EAT!!!! GOD has given me the strength to enjoy you and your food.
My Friend Amy Hannon gave me a recipe that I am going to fix tomorrow night.
Black bean soup
3 cans black beans
2 cans corn
1 can Rotel
1 clove garlic or to your taste
Dump the entire can in pot and cook
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Final thoughts on day 3
I have pressed on through this day.
Jason was eating some cheese and I felt like a little mouse all I needed to do was just get one little whiff.
I have gone to the movies and only had a water and a homemade snack of golden raisins dried apples sunflower seeds and macadamia nuts. That was really tasty. Did you know that dried apples are really ugly? They look like shriveled up ears. I even got to carry that huge tub of buttered corn for the kids and No I did not touch it.
I have had to struggle with the thought that I deserve to have a little something since the attack of women hood is up on me. What do I deserve really? Well a lot worse than cramps and eating homemade snacks at a movie.
I am guessing and Hopeful that as the toxins leave I will focus less on the have nots and more on how great the Father supplies for me.
Oh how I long for a glass of milk, or a slice of cheese, a blow of cereal would be oh so nice.
Jason was eating some cheese and I felt like a little mouse all I needed to do was just get one little whiff.
I have gone to the movies and only had a water and a homemade snack of golden raisins dried apples sunflower seeds and macadamia nuts. That was really tasty. Did you know that dried apples are really ugly? They look like shriveled up ears. I even got to carry that huge tub of buttered corn for the kids and No I did not touch it.
I have had to struggle with the thought that I deserve to have a little something since the attack of women hood is up on me. What do I deserve really? Well a lot worse than cramps and eating homemade snacks at a movie.
I am guessing and Hopeful that as the toxins leave I will focus less on the have nots and more on how great the Father supplies for me.
Oh how I long for a glass of milk, or a slice of cheese, a blow of cereal would be oh so nice.
morning of day 3
Well the day is staring off with a big bang. Two worlds are colliding: my women hood and the fast.
Have you watched Santa Clause 2? When Curtis says thedesantaficationprocesshasbegun. (the deSantafication process has begun. Well hello folks, the detoxification process has begun. Body aches and a few other shall we say inconvenient things.
I am fighting the desire to stay in bed with the covers over my head.
Have you watched Santa Clause 2? When Curtis says thedesantaficationprocesshasbegun. (the deSantafication process has begun. Well hello folks, the detoxification process has begun. Body aches and a few other shall we say inconvenient things.
I am fighting the desire to stay in bed with the covers over my head.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Day two
Day two has not been that bad I have been hungry but not starved. Lunch was great corn and black bean salad its was really good.
Supper was shall we interesting a baked potato with no good stuff, I did put zucchini and onions on it, bok choy and carrots on the side. It was good.
I am guessing that I had about 1000 cal today maybe less.
Guess I need more water. Is that possible ?
Many versus are going through my mind but the one that keepings coming up is Psalms 23 even though I walk thru the valley of the shadow of death.
Supper was shall we interesting a baked potato with no good stuff, I did put zucchini and onions on it, bok choy and carrots on the side. It was good.
I am guessing that I had about 1000 cal today maybe less.
Guess I need more water. Is that possible ?
Many versus are going through my mind but the one that keepings coming up is Psalms 23 even though I walk thru the valley of the shadow of death.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Day one
Today I start the Daniel Fast. We shall see what happens.
Well I know what happens:
Discovery 1: this day was not about God it was all about me and all my stuff.
Discovery 2: I like Sugar and that is very difficult since I can't have it on this fast. Have you ever tried to find food at the store that has no sugar or sugar subtitute or chemicals. Well let me tell you it is VERY HARD . I walked around wally world for over an hour trying to find food. I got a little depressed over my food choices. I think that I will have to ditch the some of my legalism when I seek food. I will have to pray and weigh the cost of a few sugars and chemicals in the whole contents of a prepackaged food.
I will not eat a bowl of sugar! I will not! But I hope that I can learn how to gag down an no sugar in anything frozen fruit smoothie. Just an FYI: Food this isn't ripe needs a little help. I will not add sugar but I will pray that God shows me where to find the sweet fruit.
I will take hart in the fact this too shall pass and give way less dependency on food. Today, however was not that day
Well I know what happens:
Discovery 1: this day was not about God it was all about me and all my stuff.
Discovery 2: I like Sugar and that is very difficult since I can't have it on this fast. Have you ever tried to find food at the store that has no sugar or sugar subtitute or chemicals. Well let me tell you it is VERY HARD . I walked around wally world for over an hour trying to find food. I got a little depressed over my food choices. I think that I will have to ditch the some of my legalism when I seek food. I will have to pray and weigh the cost of a few sugars and chemicals in the whole contents of a prepackaged food.
I will not eat a bowl of sugar! I will not! But I hope that I can learn how to gag down an no sugar in anything frozen fruit smoothie. Just an FYI: Food this isn't ripe needs a little help. I will not add sugar but I will pray that God shows me where to find the sweet fruit.
I will take hart in the fact this too shall pass and give way less dependency on food. Today, however was not that day
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