Oh the joy of finding out your not young any more. Hiked hills and caves with little 3rd graders yesterday and my legs were BURNING!! but it was really sad to see me an over weight old women beating many of the kids up the silver dollar cityesk hill. I learned that if I ever go back to war eagle caverns I must work on my squat and duck as one has to do that a lot in the cave and bring a bigger sandwich.
Tomorrow is field trip 2 for this week. The rodeo for first grade and I am off to find the "right color of purple " t-shirt and hair ribbon, cowgirl boots. Guess I will have to go to geriatric mexico wal-mart to find boots. Snootyville wal mart doesn't carry them.
Friday is all day at school # 3 aka Tiger pride and I get to celebrate the "day of the Child " by making nacho cheese for the third graders, buy books because it is the spring beg I mean book fair and Then tada Tiger fest that night.
If I get to have any more fun this week I may hang myself with my new purple t-shirt. On second thought that wouldn't work I don't have a good place in the house and the shirt would probably rip because it only cost 4 bucks. I guess I will live to parent another day. sigh
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Monday, April 26, 2010
April 25
This is from the Oswald Chambers group on Face Book. Tell me what you think.
One of the worst traps a Christian worker can fall into is to become obsessed with his own exceptional moments of inspiration. When the Spirit of God gives you a time of inspiration and insight, you tend to say, “Now that I’ve experienced this moment, I will always be like this for God.” No, you will not, and God will make sure of that. Those times are entirely the gift of God. You cannot give them to yourself when you choose. If you say you will only be at your best for God, as during those exceptional times, you actually become an intolerable burden on Him. You will never do anything unless God keeps you consciously aware of His inspiration to you at all times. If you make a god out of your best moments, you will find that God will fade out of your life, never to return until you are obedient in the work He has placed closest to you, and until you have learned not to be obsessed with those exceptional moments He has given you.
Have you ever met a christian who has"it" or you think "when I grow up I want to be like them." Well I have and I think what I see in them(and maybe you do to ) is that they are not impressed with themselves but with God and that gives them peace that you can see and feel.
One of the worst traps a Christian worker can fall into is to become obsessed with his own exceptional moments of inspiration. When the Spirit of God gives you a time of inspiration and insight, you tend to say, “Now that I’ve experienced this moment, I will always be like this for God.” No, you will not, and God will make sure of that. Those times are entirely the gift of God. You cannot give them to yourself when you choose. If you say you will only be at your best for God, as during those exceptional times, you actually become an intolerable burden on Him. You will never do anything unless God keeps you consciously aware of His inspiration to you at all times. If you make a god out of your best moments, you will find that God will fade out of your life, never to return until you are obedient in the work He has placed closest to you, and until you have learned not to be obsessed with those exceptional moments He has given you.
Have you ever met a christian who has"it" or you think "when I grow up I want to be like them." Well I have and I think what I see in them(and maybe you do to ) is that they are not impressed with themselves but with God and that gives them peace that you can see and feel.
Monday, April 19, 2010
April 19
Ok friends here's whats new:)
Had a minor epiphany yesterday and into today. I no longer desire to be 150 lbs I can live, thrive and be very happy weighing more than that. What I do desire is to no longer buy clothes a whale-mart. I really want to buy clothes in the regular women's section and be cute in them. And to that end I will work to get myself into that section. I will also have my herniated stomach muscles repaired and my boobs fluffed up.
No one told me that having children was so bad for ones assets. I would have stilled had the little blessings but I sure would have worked harder to get my assets back!
Had a minor epiphany yesterday and into today. I no longer desire to be 150 lbs I can live, thrive and be very happy weighing more than that. What I do desire is to no longer buy clothes a whale-mart. I really want to buy clothes in the regular women's section and be cute in them. And to that end I will work to get myself into that section. I will also have my herniated stomach muscles repaired and my boobs fluffed up.
No one told me that having children was so bad for ones assets. I would have stilled had the little blessings but I sure would have worked harder to get my assets back!
Monday, April 12, 2010
April 12
Well I am back on the wagon after a week off. I tried to eat every thing that looooked so goood while I was on the fast. What to know something none of it and I mean none of was sooo good that I couldn't give it up again. And so I will eat somethings maybe on the weekends but for the most part during the week I am going to follow the veggie and fruit thing. I really just felt so much better during the fast than I did last week. The aches and pains came back and that is something I can live with out.
Friday, April 9, 2010
April 9
I am looking for a good paper bag.
My eyes are not yet healed form their resent dispute with the hand sanitizing soap.They still swell and are currently peeling.
I now have a fever blister that has blown up half my upper lip. Not to mention my ongoing battle with chin hair and I have some blisters on my hands from getting burned and I wrenched my back today.
The groundhog has declared 6 more weeks of ugly and I am going with him back under ground. See you when most of this has healed
My eyes are not yet healed form their resent dispute with the hand sanitizing soap.They still swell and are currently peeling.
I now have a fever blister that has blown up half my upper lip. Not to mention my ongoing battle with chin hair and I have some blisters on my hands from getting burned and I wrenched my back today.
The groundhog has declared 6 more weeks of ugly and I am going with him back under ground. See you when most of this has healed
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
4 days past
Ok so it's 4 days past the fast, and I am very close to being over regular food. I miss my veggies.
Here is the brake down of the fast:
lost 25 lbs
down 2 pants sizes and 1 shirt size
boobs deflated and some skin hanging around
gained a new perspective on food and my life
learned that God grants lots of self-control
Denying yourself the "stuff" that drags you around by the nose can give you pleasure and boost your confidence. I had several times during the fast when I just had to say "take that! I will not be stopped" and it felt GOOD to say it. I think so often I get caught up in lives of my family making sure that they are succeeding in all their areas that I have put my need to succeed far away.
Here is where it get tricky, sticky and dare I say deep.
I have made it my goal as a wife and mother get rid of all my needs, wants and desires of self because if I did not that just proved that I was selfish. You have to admit we always admire the most sacrificial wives, mothers, women because this shows their greatness ie Proverbs 31 women. This idea was taught from an early age and expected of me by my family and when I got married I expected it of myself. Can you say conflict of interest. The battle of self and expected self had begun in epic proportion. Submit, obey, denying yourself all good biblical teachings, but I saw disregard yourself for his benefit and later on their benefit. I have at many times prided myself in my ability to push self away and to make them the most important. I have done this because I believed that this is what a mother, daughter, wife, christian is to do, but is it really? Am I supposed suppress all that I want and desire out of life every time for the sake of others? Does God see me as holier than others because of my sacrifice? Sure He does because that's how you impress God. Give all your time and effort to "sacrificial obedience" because that is what make you great in God's eyes. Read self righteous and holier than thou and just really pissed off.
I have fought with with anger my entire life and it has won many battles. I know why. I hated to be told what I felt and passed over because "oh Wendy won't care she will understand" Like rip Wendy won't care and I won't understand. But did I say anything, No because I was supposed to just take it and smile and I did it to perfection. When I really just wanted to tell them off and take what was mine. STUFFING!! Can't say anything, just naturally turned into won't say anything and internal anger is born!
This is what I know now; Denying self should in end give you joy not anger or resentment. Suppression of self is not sacrificial love it is stuffing. Stuffing leads to anger and resentment. Which will lead to bitterness and I do not want to be a bitter old women I lived with one and I will not become her. Sacrificial love although it may not be what I want to do I will do it as unto the Father and He will give me joy. Every minute of very day is not about the kids and I am not self serving if is about me. I do not have to give all the time to them, it is ok to say "not today" and not feel guilty or selfish.
I pray that I have learned my lesson to either speak up and deal with the situation or give it over to God and let Him deal with it and not take it up again.
All of this is "just learned" information just you wait till I put down what I have been smoking over the entire fast.
Here is the brake down of the fast:
lost 25 lbs
down 2 pants sizes and 1 shirt size
boobs deflated and some skin hanging around
gained a new perspective on food and my life
learned that God grants lots of self-control
Denying yourself the "stuff" that drags you around by the nose can give you pleasure and boost your confidence. I had several times during the fast when I just had to say "take that! I will not be stopped" and it felt GOOD to say it. I think so often I get caught up in lives of my family making sure that they are succeeding in all their areas that I have put my need to succeed far away.
Here is where it get tricky, sticky and dare I say deep.
I have made it my goal as a wife and mother get rid of all my needs, wants and desires of self because if I did not that just proved that I was selfish. You have to admit we always admire the most sacrificial wives, mothers, women because this shows their greatness ie Proverbs 31 women. This idea was taught from an early age and expected of me by my family and when I got married I expected it of myself. Can you say conflict of interest. The battle of self and expected self had begun in epic proportion. Submit, obey, denying yourself all good biblical teachings, but I saw disregard yourself for his benefit and later on their benefit. I have at many times prided myself in my ability to push self away and to make them the most important. I have done this because I believed that this is what a mother, daughter, wife, christian is to do, but is it really? Am I supposed suppress all that I want and desire out of life every time for the sake of others? Does God see me as holier than others because of my sacrifice? Sure He does because that's how you impress God. Give all your time and effort to "sacrificial obedience" because that is what make you great in God's eyes. Read self righteous and holier than thou and just really pissed off.
I have fought with with anger my entire life and it has won many battles. I know why. I hated to be told what I felt and passed over because "oh Wendy won't care she will understand" Like rip Wendy won't care and I won't understand. But did I say anything, No because I was supposed to just take it and smile and I did it to perfection. When I really just wanted to tell them off and take what was mine. STUFFING!! Can't say anything, just naturally turned into won't say anything and internal anger is born!
This is what I know now; Denying self should in end give you joy not anger or resentment. Suppression of self is not sacrificial love it is stuffing. Stuffing leads to anger and resentment. Which will lead to bitterness and I do not want to be a bitter old women I lived with one and I will not become her. Sacrificial love although it may not be what I want to do I will do it as unto the Father and He will give me joy. Every minute of very day is not about the kids and I am not self serving if is about me. I do not have to give all the time to them, it is ok to say "not today" and not feel guilty or selfish.
I pray that I have learned my lesson to either speak up and deal with the situation or give it over to God and let Him deal with it and not take it up again.
All of this is "just learned" information just you wait till I put down what I have been smoking over the entire fast.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
D Day
The Food at 12:00 am this morning was so so but Lunch was very good! Tummy was a little active but no biggie.
Taking the boy for Pizza then back to on a modified "fast". Veggies are good and I like em.
Taking the boy for Pizza then back to on a modified "fast". Veggies are good and I like em.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Day 43
The day of silence. How fearful and sad the disciples had to have been.
Glory hallelujah I get to eat Tomorrow!
I think this process has given me a new joy for things that I denied myself. Will I take food for granted again? Sure I will. But will I remember what I have learned. You betcha!
I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!
So today I cook. I will not nibble. I will not lick. I will not taste anything.
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
TomoRRow, TomoRRow, TomoRROw
I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat Tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE HE HE HE HE HE HE
Glory hallelujah I get to eat Tomorrow!
I think this process has given me a new joy for things that I denied myself. Will I take food for granted again? Sure I will. But will I remember what I have learned. You betcha!
I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!
So today I cook. I will not nibble. I will not lick. I will not taste anything.
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
TomoRRow, TomoRRow, TomoRROw
I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat Tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE HE HE HE HE HE HE
Friday, April 2, 2010
Day 42
Was Good Friday a good day for the Father?
Where you there when they Crucified my Lord
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Where you there when they Crucified my Lord
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Day 41
Holy Thursday also know as Maundy Thursday
10He replied, "As you enter the city, a man carrying a jar of water will meet you. Follow him to the house that he enters, 11and say to the owner of the house, 'The Teacher asks: Where is the guest room, where I may eat the Passover with my disciples?' 12He will show you a large upper room, all furnished. Make preparations there."
13They left and found things just as Jesus had told them. So they prepared the Passover.
14When the hour came, Jesus and his apostles reclined at the table. 15And he said to them, "I have eagerly desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer. 16For I tell you, I will not eat it again until it finds fulfillment in the kingdom of God."
17After taking the cup, he gave thanks and said, "Take this and divide it among you. 18For I tell you I will not drink again of the fruit of the vine until the kingdom of God comes."
19And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, "This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me."
20In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you. 21But the hand of him who is going to betray me is with mine on the table. 22The Son of Man will go as it has been decreed, but woe to that man who betrays him." 23They began to question among themselves which of them it might be who would do this.
Luke 22:1-23
Judas Agrees to Betray Jesus
1Now the Feast of Unleavened Bread, called the Passover, was approaching, 2and the chief priests and the teachers of the law were looking for some way to get rid of Jesus, for they were afraid of the people. 3Then Satan entered Judas, called Iscariot, one of the Twelve. 4And Judas went to the chief priests and the officers of the temple guard and discussed with them how he might betray Jesus. 5They were delighted and agreed to give him money. 6He consented, and watched for an opportunity to hand Jesus over to them when no crowd was present.The Last Supper
7Then came the day of Unleavened Bread on which the Passover lamb had to be sacrificed. 8Jesus sent Peter and John, saying, "Go and make preparations for us to eat the Passover." 9"Where do you want us to prepare for it?" they asked.10He replied, "As you enter the city, a man carrying a jar of water will meet you. Follow him to the house that he enters, 11and say to the owner of the house, 'The Teacher asks: Where is the guest room, where I may eat the Passover with my disciples?' 12He will show you a large upper room, all furnished. Make preparations there."
13They left and found things just as Jesus had told them. So they prepared the Passover.
14When the hour came, Jesus and his apostles reclined at the table. 15And he said to them, "I have eagerly desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer. 16For I tell you, I will not eat it again until it finds fulfillment in the kingdom of God."
17After taking the cup, he gave thanks and said, "Take this and divide it among you. 18For I tell you I will not drink again of the fruit of the vine until the kingdom of God comes."
19And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, "This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me."
20In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you. 21But the hand of him who is going to betray me is with mine on the table. 22The Son of Man will go as it has been decreed, but woe to that man who betrays him." 23They began to question among themselves which of them it might be who would do this.
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