I have heard that summer is the best time to just be, and I think that is true for children. They have just about be'ed me to death. Mom I just.... I'll just be a min... It's just a few days.... It will be $$$$... I just don't want to!!!! and my all time favorite summer saying is MOM can I (we) _____________?!.?!.
I think I have put 2-3000 miles on my van this summer taking these people places and what have I gotten out of it? Just a van that is dying and really sorry attitude.
Well that's not entirely true I have learned some things about my children this summer:
If you make Kathryn practice Volleyball for 3 hours a day she is to tired to argue with you or fight with her brother and sister. (miracles still happen!!!!)
Brandon loves to clean. He would just rather do it a my mother's house.I know he is helping an old women which is so nice, but what about the fact you can't get into his room or shut his door and I am trying to clean it up so we can sale the house?
Stephanie is very very stubborn and she can do it with great drama or very slyly. I am not pleased with this new adventure is to pain in buttnedness.
Now don't get up in arms I do love my children but sometimes the are huge pains the rear ends and I want to run away from home.
Maybe I will write songs of parenteral angst
Can't wait till August
The end is near and I can hear the sanitized halls calling my children's name. It was very faint in June, and July's was 'bout the same but as August approaches it get louder by the day. I will sing a new song, I will Sing songs of praise because my Savior has delivered me.
The nagging blues
it starts up in the morning and goes right on till noon. give a little time just to digest the food then it's starts back up again. It was him it was her too bad it's not the cat I could kick her right out the door.
I've got the INGs blues fussing and fighting and grumping even in the rain. Complaining, shouting,and laying around all the day.
Amen!!!
Friday, July 30, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
The meeting has occurred and I don't think it could have gone any better, as reported to me " they listened" and that was my hearts desire that they hear Jason and truly give his ideas consideration. They seemed to be receptive, now it is up to the bigger boss. I do not know how or when this information will be passed along and it is totally out of my hand (not that it ever really was). Thank you Friends for placing us before the Almighty.
What I learned
Well friends a complete fast (that meaning only liquid type food) even if it's only for a day and 1/2 is not for the faint of heart nor the weak of stomach. I now know the meaning of "I emptied myself" and to be "brought low". A fast of this nature is very humbling. I used this time to seek God's will for our family and every time my mind would roam to food I would say a prayer of blessing for Jason. I also used this time to confess my sins from the days before. I had my 20th reunion and I have to confess I still am not fond of those people and I did not think kind thoughts about them. It stilled seemed to divide it's self out into clicks and the Jr. highs. I was so glad to see some friends of the lower rung so that I could converse and have a few laughs. I will not be going to the 30th I don't care that much and I don't 10 more years is going to change that.
I now will go eat breakfast as I watch the USA beat Algeria. I can't wait it will be my first morning food in two weeks. I have fasted breakfast for the past 2 weeks for Jason and "the Meeting" and there were times when it was hard not to eat food and I had to talk my self out of eating "lunch" at 9 or 10 am and now I believe I will go have a bowl of cereal to bad it's not a cinnamon roll from Ricks.
Good day to you all :0)
What I learned
Well friends a complete fast (that meaning only liquid type food) even if it's only for a day and 1/2 is not for the faint of heart nor the weak of stomach. I now know the meaning of "I emptied myself" and to be "brought low". A fast of this nature is very humbling. I used this time to seek God's will for our family and every time my mind would roam to food I would say a prayer of blessing for Jason. I also used this time to confess my sins from the days before. I had my 20th reunion and I have to confess I still am not fond of those people and I did not think kind thoughts about them. It stilled seemed to divide it's self out into clicks and the Jr. highs. I was so glad to see some friends of the lower rung so that I could converse and have a few laughs. I will not be going to the 30th I don't care that much and I don't 10 more years is going to change that.
I now will go eat breakfast as I watch the USA beat Algeria. I can't wait it will be my first morning food in two weeks. I have fasted breakfast for the past 2 weeks for Jason and "the Meeting" and there were times when it was hard not to eat food and I had to talk my self out of eating "lunch" at 9 or 10 am and now I believe I will go have a bowl of cereal to bad it's not a cinnamon roll from Ricks.
Good day to you all :0)
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Well its futbol time in the Givens' Family. Yes for those of you who are not as informed as I the World cup is going on in South Africa. Here is how it works out in the mathmatical world 4 weeks of futbol + 8 groups x 4 teams per group + it is all on ESPN = lots and lots of futbol for me.
I have a friend who loves soccer and who is in south Africa as we speak. He and his son are doing God's work and not getting to see any of the games. Chris said that they would not be able to go because distance wise it is like going from Canada to Mexico.
Injoy the worlds most popular sport (if you can) just so you can say you did.
I have a friend who loves soccer and who is in south Africa as we speak. He and his son are doing God's work and not getting to see any of the games. Chris said that they would not be able to go because distance wise it is like going from Canada to Mexico.
Injoy the worlds most popular sport (if you can) just so you can say you did.
Venues
In 2005, the organisers released a provisional list of twelve venues to be used for the World Cup: Bloemfontein, Cape Town, Durban, Johannesburg (two venues), Kimberley, Nelspruit, Orkney, Polokwane, Port Elizabeth, Pretoria, and Rustenburg. This was narrowed down to ten venues[17] which were officially announced by FIFA on 17 March 2006:
Monday, June 7, 2010
fasting
We have a big moment coming up in our lives and I am returning to fasting for answers and peace. I really learned things about myself on the big fast during lent and I feel that fasting is the way to go when life's moments are to big for you to grasp. I also feel that God can really work when the vessel is emptied and humble, and I intend to be as empty as I can for this. I am asking the Father to give me the desires of my heart but at the same time I want to be in His will. SO if you would please join us in prayer over the next 14 days asking the Father to open the minds of those in charge to new ideas. Jason will be laying out our petition on the June 21 and I pray that the powers that be will be freed from the ancient ideas and status quo to see new possibilities.I would dearly love to be able to move forward with ours lives and I believe that is the moment that will put things into motion.
Let the Fasting begin!!!!
Let the Fasting begin!!!!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
dance dance dance
Thought I was going to have to kill Kathryn She didn't hear her dance called. But when they recalled a name that sounded like her dance I told her to go back , "but mom that's not my song" "Just humor me and go see." Well she didn't come back till she got off stage. When I saw her on stage my stomach just lurched and I thought about what would have happened if she had not gone back. We would have lost a whole years $$$ for lessons and costumes, because it you don't do the rehearsal you can't do the show.
Today only one daughter has to go to rehearsal but it should be long as well (no tap just ballet ugh!!) hopefully not as long, but we have to be there the whole time. Yeah dance!!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Hey Hey Hey
Hello friends long time no type. I told you I was not good at daily writings, Oh I have written many daily blogs but sadly they remain in my head. There have been some good ones I will try to remember them and send them your way. I figure my writing will pick up once the kids get out of school. I will need a moment(s) to keep from sending them to the moon and this blog may be the only thing that keeps them from being the first kids on the moon.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
April 28
Oh the joy of finding out your not young any more. Hiked hills and caves with little 3rd graders yesterday and my legs were BURNING!! but it was really sad to see me an over weight old women beating many of the kids up the silver dollar cityesk hill. I learned that if I ever go back to war eagle caverns I must work on my squat and duck as one has to do that a lot in the cave and bring a bigger sandwich.
Tomorrow is field trip 2 for this week. The rodeo for first grade and I am off to find the "right color of purple " t-shirt and hair ribbon, cowgirl boots. Guess I will have to go to geriatric mexico wal-mart to find boots. Snootyville wal mart doesn't carry them.
Friday is all day at school # 3 aka Tiger pride and I get to celebrate the "day of the Child " by making nacho cheese for the third graders, buy books because it is the spring beg I mean book fair and Then tada Tiger fest that night.
If I get to have any more fun this week I may hang myself with my new purple t-shirt. On second thought that wouldn't work I don't have a good place in the house and the shirt would probably rip because it only cost 4 bucks. I guess I will live to parent another day. sigh
Tomorrow is field trip 2 for this week. The rodeo for first grade and I am off to find the "right color of purple " t-shirt and hair ribbon, cowgirl boots. Guess I will have to go to geriatric mexico wal-mart to find boots. Snootyville wal mart doesn't carry them.
Friday is all day at school # 3 aka Tiger pride and I get to celebrate the "day of the Child " by making nacho cheese for the third graders, buy books because it is the spring beg I mean book fair and Then tada Tiger fest that night.
If I get to have any more fun this week I may hang myself with my new purple t-shirt. On second thought that wouldn't work I don't have a good place in the house and the shirt would probably rip because it only cost 4 bucks. I guess I will live to parent another day. sigh
Monday, April 26, 2010
April 25
This is from the Oswald Chambers group on Face Book. Tell me what you think.
One of the worst traps a Christian worker can fall into is to become obsessed with his own exceptional moments of inspiration. When the Spirit of God gives you a time of inspiration and insight, you tend to say, “Now that I’ve experienced this moment, I will always be like this for God.” No, you will not, and God will make sure of that. Those times are entirely the gift of God. You cannot give them to yourself when you choose. If you say you will only be at your best for God, as during those exceptional times, you actually become an intolerable burden on Him. You will never do anything unless God keeps you consciously aware of His inspiration to you at all times. If you make a god out of your best moments, you will find that God will fade out of your life, never to return until you are obedient in the work He has placed closest to you, and until you have learned not to be obsessed with those exceptional moments He has given you.
Have you ever met a christian who has"it" or you think "when I grow up I want to be like them." Well I have and I think what I see in them(and maybe you do to ) is that they are not impressed with themselves but with God and that gives them peace that you can see and feel.
One of the worst traps a Christian worker can fall into is to become obsessed with his own exceptional moments of inspiration. When the Spirit of God gives you a time of inspiration and insight, you tend to say, “Now that I’ve experienced this moment, I will always be like this for God.” No, you will not, and God will make sure of that. Those times are entirely the gift of God. You cannot give them to yourself when you choose. If you say you will only be at your best for God, as during those exceptional times, you actually become an intolerable burden on Him. You will never do anything unless God keeps you consciously aware of His inspiration to you at all times. If you make a god out of your best moments, you will find that God will fade out of your life, never to return until you are obedient in the work He has placed closest to you, and until you have learned not to be obsessed with those exceptional moments He has given you.
Have you ever met a christian who has"it" or you think "when I grow up I want to be like them." Well I have and I think what I see in them(and maybe you do to ) is that they are not impressed with themselves but with God and that gives them peace that you can see and feel.
Monday, April 19, 2010
April 19
Ok friends here's whats new:)
Had a minor epiphany yesterday and into today. I no longer desire to be 150 lbs I can live, thrive and be very happy weighing more than that. What I do desire is to no longer buy clothes a whale-mart. I really want to buy clothes in the regular women's section and be cute in them. And to that end I will work to get myself into that section. I will also have my herniated stomach muscles repaired and my boobs fluffed up.
No one told me that having children was so bad for ones assets. I would have stilled had the little blessings but I sure would have worked harder to get my assets back!
Had a minor epiphany yesterday and into today. I no longer desire to be 150 lbs I can live, thrive and be very happy weighing more than that. What I do desire is to no longer buy clothes a whale-mart. I really want to buy clothes in the regular women's section and be cute in them. And to that end I will work to get myself into that section. I will also have my herniated stomach muscles repaired and my boobs fluffed up.
No one told me that having children was so bad for ones assets. I would have stilled had the little blessings but I sure would have worked harder to get my assets back!
Monday, April 12, 2010
April 12
Well I am back on the wagon after a week off. I tried to eat every thing that looooked so goood while I was on the fast. What to know something none of it and I mean none of was sooo good that I couldn't give it up again. And so I will eat somethings maybe on the weekends but for the most part during the week I am going to follow the veggie and fruit thing. I really just felt so much better during the fast than I did last week. The aches and pains came back and that is something I can live with out.
Friday, April 9, 2010
April 9
I am looking for a good paper bag.
My eyes are not yet healed form their resent dispute with the hand sanitizing soap.They still swell and are currently peeling.
I now have a fever blister that has blown up half my upper lip. Not to mention my ongoing battle with chin hair and I have some blisters on my hands from getting burned and I wrenched my back today.
The groundhog has declared 6 more weeks of ugly and I am going with him back under ground. See you when most of this has healed
My eyes are not yet healed form their resent dispute with the hand sanitizing soap.They still swell and are currently peeling.
I now have a fever blister that has blown up half my upper lip. Not to mention my ongoing battle with chin hair and I have some blisters on my hands from getting burned and I wrenched my back today.
The groundhog has declared 6 more weeks of ugly and I am going with him back under ground. See you when most of this has healed
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
4 days past
Ok so it's 4 days past the fast, and I am very close to being over regular food. I miss my veggies.
Here is the brake down of the fast:
lost 25 lbs
down 2 pants sizes and 1 shirt size
boobs deflated and some skin hanging around
gained a new perspective on food and my life
learned that God grants lots of self-control
Denying yourself the "stuff" that drags you around by the nose can give you pleasure and boost your confidence. I had several times during the fast when I just had to say "take that! I will not be stopped" and it felt GOOD to say it. I think so often I get caught up in lives of my family making sure that they are succeeding in all their areas that I have put my need to succeed far away.
Here is where it get tricky, sticky and dare I say deep.
I have made it my goal as a wife and mother get rid of all my needs, wants and desires of self because if I did not that just proved that I was selfish. You have to admit we always admire the most sacrificial wives, mothers, women because this shows their greatness ie Proverbs 31 women. This idea was taught from an early age and expected of me by my family and when I got married I expected it of myself. Can you say conflict of interest. The battle of self and expected self had begun in epic proportion. Submit, obey, denying yourself all good biblical teachings, but I saw disregard yourself for his benefit and later on their benefit. I have at many times prided myself in my ability to push self away and to make them the most important. I have done this because I believed that this is what a mother, daughter, wife, christian is to do, but is it really? Am I supposed suppress all that I want and desire out of life every time for the sake of others? Does God see me as holier than others because of my sacrifice? Sure He does because that's how you impress God. Give all your time and effort to "sacrificial obedience" because that is what make you great in God's eyes. Read self righteous and holier than thou and just really pissed off.
I have fought with with anger my entire life and it has won many battles. I know why. I hated to be told what I felt and passed over because "oh Wendy won't care she will understand" Like rip Wendy won't care and I won't understand. But did I say anything, No because I was supposed to just take it and smile and I did it to perfection. When I really just wanted to tell them off and take what was mine. STUFFING!! Can't say anything, just naturally turned into won't say anything and internal anger is born!
This is what I know now; Denying self should in end give you joy not anger or resentment. Suppression of self is not sacrificial love it is stuffing. Stuffing leads to anger and resentment. Which will lead to bitterness and I do not want to be a bitter old women I lived with one and I will not become her. Sacrificial love although it may not be what I want to do I will do it as unto the Father and He will give me joy. Every minute of very day is not about the kids and I am not self serving if is about me. I do not have to give all the time to them, it is ok to say "not today" and not feel guilty or selfish.
I pray that I have learned my lesson to either speak up and deal with the situation or give it over to God and let Him deal with it and not take it up again.
All of this is "just learned" information just you wait till I put down what I have been smoking over the entire fast.
Here is the brake down of the fast:
lost 25 lbs
down 2 pants sizes and 1 shirt size
boobs deflated and some skin hanging around
gained a new perspective on food and my life
learned that God grants lots of self-control
Denying yourself the "stuff" that drags you around by the nose can give you pleasure and boost your confidence. I had several times during the fast when I just had to say "take that! I will not be stopped" and it felt GOOD to say it. I think so often I get caught up in lives of my family making sure that they are succeeding in all their areas that I have put my need to succeed far away.
Here is where it get tricky, sticky and dare I say deep.
I have made it my goal as a wife and mother get rid of all my needs, wants and desires of self because if I did not that just proved that I was selfish. You have to admit we always admire the most sacrificial wives, mothers, women because this shows their greatness ie Proverbs 31 women. This idea was taught from an early age and expected of me by my family and when I got married I expected it of myself. Can you say conflict of interest. The battle of self and expected self had begun in epic proportion. Submit, obey, denying yourself all good biblical teachings, but I saw disregard yourself for his benefit and later on their benefit. I have at many times prided myself in my ability to push self away and to make them the most important. I have done this because I believed that this is what a mother, daughter, wife, christian is to do, but is it really? Am I supposed suppress all that I want and desire out of life every time for the sake of others? Does God see me as holier than others because of my sacrifice? Sure He does because that's how you impress God. Give all your time and effort to "sacrificial obedience" because that is what make you great in God's eyes. Read self righteous and holier than thou and just really pissed off.
I have fought with with anger my entire life and it has won many battles. I know why. I hated to be told what I felt and passed over because "oh Wendy won't care she will understand" Like rip Wendy won't care and I won't understand. But did I say anything, No because I was supposed to just take it and smile and I did it to perfection. When I really just wanted to tell them off and take what was mine. STUFFING!! Can't say anything, just naturally turned into won't say anything and internal anger is born!
This is what I know now; Denying self should in end give you joy not anger or resentment. Suppression of self is not sacrificial love it is stuffing. Stuffing leads to anger and resentment. Which will lead to bitterness and I do not want to be a bitter old women I lived with one and I will not become her. Sacrificial love although it may not be what I want to do I will do it as unto the Father and He will give me joy. Every minute of very day is not about the kids and I am not self serving if is about me. I do not have to give all the time to them, it is ok to say "not today" and not feel guilty or selfish.
I pray that I have learned my lesson to either speak up and deal with the situation or give it over to God and let Him deal with it and not take it up again.
All of this is "just learned" information just you wait till I put down what I have been smoking over the entire fast.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
D Day
The Food at 12:00 am this morning was so so but Lunch was very good! Tummy was a little active but no biggie.
Taking the boy for Pizza then back to on a modified "fast". Veggies are good and I like em.
Taking the boy for Pizza then back to on a modified "fast". Veggies are good and I like em.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Day 43
The day of silence. How fearful and sad the disciples had to have been.
Glory hallelujah I get to eat Tomorrow!
I think this process has given me a new joy for things that I denied myself. Will I take food for granted again? Sure I will. But will I remember what I have learned. You betcha!
I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!
So today I cook. I will not nibble. I will not lick. I will not taste anything.
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
TomoRRow, TomoRRow, TomoRROw
I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat Tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE HE HE HE HE HE HE
Glory hallelujah I get to eat Tomorrow!
I think this process has given me a new joy for things that I denied myself. Will I take food for granted again? Sure I will. But will I remember what I have learned. You betcha!
I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!
So today I cook. I will not nibble. I will not lick. I will not taste anything.
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
TomoRRow, TomoRRow, TomoRROw
I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat. I get to eat.I get to eat. I get to eat Tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE HE HE HE HE HE HE
Friday, April 2, 2010
Day 42
Was Good Friday a good day for the Father?
Where you there when they Crucified my Lord
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Where you there when they Crucified my Lord
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they crucified my lord ?
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they nailed him to the tree ?
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they pierced him in the side ?
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Oh, sometimes it causes me to tremble, tremble, tremble
Were you there when they laid him in the tomb ?
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Day 41
Holy Thursday also know as Maundy Thursday
10He replied, "As you enter the city, a man carrying a jar of water will meet you. Follow him to the house that he enters, 11and say to the owner of the house, 'The Teacher asks: Where is the guest room, where I may eat the Passover with my disciples?' 12He will show you a large upper room, all furnished. Make preparations there."
13They left and found things just as Jesus had told them. So they prepared the Passover.
14When the hour came, Jesus and his apostles reclined at the table. 15And he said to them, "I have eagerly desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer. 16For I tell you, I will not eat it again until it finds fulfillment in the kingdom of God."
17After taking the cup, he gave thanks and said, "Take this and divide it among you. 18For I tell you I will not drink again of the fruit of the vine until the kingdom of God comes."
19And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, "This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me."
20In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you. 21But the hand of him who is going to betray me is with mine on the table. 22The Son of Man will go as it has been decreed, but woe to that man who betrays him." 23They began to question among themselves which of them it might be who would do this.
Luke 22:1-23
Judas Agrees to Betray Jesus
1Now the Feast of Unleavened Bread, called the Passover, was approaching, 2and the chief priests and the teachers of the law were looking for some way to get rid of Jesus, for they were afraid of the people. 3Then Satan entered Judas, called Iscariot, one of the Twelve. 4And Judas went to the chief priests and the officers of the temple guard and discussed with them how he might betray Jesus. 5They were delighted and agreed to give him money. 6He consented, and watched for an opportunity to hand Jesus over to them when no crowd was present.The Last Supper
7Then came the day of Unleavened Bread on which the Passover lamb had to be sacrificed. 8Jesus sent Peter and John, saying, "Go and make preparations for us to eat the Passover." 9"Where do you want us to prepare for it?" they asked.10He replied, "As you enter the city, a man carrying a jar of water will meet you. Follow him to the house that he enters, 11and say to the owner of the house, 'The Teacher asks: Where is the guest room, where I may eat the Passover with my disciples?' 12He will show you a large upper room, all furnished. Make preparations there."
13They left and found things just as Jesus had told them. So they prepared the Passover.
14When the hour came, Jesus and his apostles reclined at the table. 15And he said to them, "I have eagerly desired to eat this Passover with you before I suffer. 16For I tell you, I will not eat it again until it finds fulfillment in the kingdom of God."
17After taking the cup, he gave thanks and said, "Take this and divide it among you. 18For I tell you I will not drink again of the fruit of the vine until the kingdom of God comes."
19And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, "This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me."
20In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, "This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you. 21But the hand of him who is going to betray me is with mine on the table. 22The Son of Man will go as it has been decreed, but woe to that man who betrays him." 23They began to question among themselves which of them it might be who would do this.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Day 40
Holy Week is the last week of Lent.
Holy Week observances began in Jerusalem in the earliest days of the Church, when devout people traveled to Jerusalem at Passover to reenact the events of the week leading up to the Resurrection.
Egeria was a Christian who traveled widely during the period of 381-385 and wrote about Christian customs and observances in Egypt, Palestine, and Asia Minor. She described how religious tourists to Jerusalem reenacted the events of Holy Week. On Palm Sunday afternoon, the crowds waved palm fronds as they made a procession from the Mount of Olives into the city. Of course, the observances must have begun quite a number of years before Egeria witnessed them, or they wouldn’t have been so elaborate. It’s just that Egeria’s description is the earliest we still have. The tourists took the customs home with them. Holy week observances spread to Spain by the fifth century, to Gaul and England by the early seventh century. They didn’t spread to Rome until the twelfth century.
The purpose of Holy Week is to reenact, relive, and participate in the passion of Jesus Christ. See Honest to God for an explanation of what we accomplish by doing this.
Holy Week is the same in the eastern and western Church, but because eastern Christians use the Julian Calendar to calculate Easter, the celebrations occur at different times. However, the following events in the week before Easter are the same, east and west, relative to the date of Easter:
Well the 40 days conclude today and I have just 3 more to go until the blessed event.
Today in a pinch I drank tap water and let me tell you there are a lot of chemicals in our water. I guess I will have to remain a snotty wanta be rich girl and drink my filtered water. It just taste a little bit better.
Holy Week observances began in Jerusalem in the earliest days of the Church, when devout people traveled to Jerusalem at Passover to reenact the events of the week leading up to the Resurrection.
Egeria was a Christian who traveled widely during the period of 381-385 and wrote about Christian customs and observances in Egypt, Palestine, and Asia Minor. She described how religious tourists to Jerusalem reenacted the events of Holy Week. On Palm Sunday afternoon, the crowds waved palm fronds as they made a procession from the Mount of Olives into the city. Of course, the observances must have begun quite a number of years before Egeria witnessed them, or they wouldn’t have been so elaborate. It’s just that Egeria’s description is the earliest we still have. The tourists took the customs home with them. Holy week observances spread to Spain by the fifth century, to Gaul and England by the early seventh century. They didn’t spread to Rome until the twelfth century.
The purpose of Holy Week is to reenact, relive, and participate in the passion of Jesus Christ. See Honest to God for an explanation of what we accomplish by doing this.
Holy Week is the same in the eastern and western Church, but because eastern Christians use the Julian Calendar to calculate Easter, the celebrations occur at different times. However, the following events in the week before Easter are the same, east and west, relative to the date of Easter:
- Palm Sunday (or Passion Sunday), the entrance of Jesus into Jerusalem.
- Holy Thursday (or Maundy Thursday), the institution of Communion and the betrayal by Judas.
- Good Friday, the arrest, trial, crucifixion, death, and burial of Jesus Christ.
- Holy Saturday, the Sabbath on which Jesus rested in the grave.
Well the 40 days conclude today and I have just 3 more to go until the blessed event.
Today in a pinch I drank tap water and let me tell you there are a lot of chemicals in our water. I guess I will have to remain a snotty wanta be rich girl and drink my filtered water. It just taste a little bit better.
Day 39
John 13:1-11
1It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that the time had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love.[a]
2The evening meal was being served, and the devil had already prompted Judas Iscariot, son of Simon, to betray Jesus. 3Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God; 4so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. 5After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples' feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him.
6He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, "Lord, are you going to wash my feet?"
7Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."
8"No," said Peter, "you shall never wash my feet."
Jesus answered, "Unless I wash you, you have no part with me."
9"Then, Lord," Simon Peter replied, "not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!"
10Jesus answered, "A person who has had a bath needs only to wash his feet; his whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you." 11For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean.
Oh but to see the full extent of His love. Don't you want that? I do. I under stand Peter here at this moment. To him this was NOT something Jesus should be doing and he just said what everyone else was thinking, but do you see how quickly he changes once Jesus explains the reason for the washing of the feet. I love this "Not just my feet Lord but my hands and head as well."
I understand what "clean is here"but don't you get what Peter is saying " Lord I want all that you can give me.
Peter is a full throttle kind of a guy. He gets himself right in the middle of messes all the time. You either understand him or you don't. Peter gets it. Peter knows who his only Hope is.
1It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that the time had come for him to leave this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of his love.[a]
2The evening meal was being served, and the devil had already prompted Judas Iscariot, son of Simon, to betray Jesus. 3Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God; 4so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. 5After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples' feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him.
6He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, "Lord, are you going to wash my feet?"
7Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."
8"No," said Peter, "you shall never wash my feet."
Jesus answered, "Unless I wash you, you have no part with me."
9"Then, Lord," Simon Peter replied, "not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!"
10Jesus answered, "A person who has had a bath needs only to wash his feet; his whole body is clean. And you are clean, though not every one of you." 11For he knew who was going to betray him, and that was why he said not every one was clean.
Oh but to see the full extent of His love. Don't you want that? I do. I under stand Peter here at this moment. To him this was NOT something Jesus should be doing and he just said what everyone else was thinking, but do you see how quickly he changes once Jesus explains the reason for the washing of the feet. I love this "Not just my feet Lord but my hands and head as well."
I understand what "clean is here"but don't you get what Peter is saying " Lord I want all that you can give me.
Peter is a full throttle kind of a guy. He gets himself right in the middle of messes all the time. You either understand him or you don't. Peter gets it. Peter knows who his only Hope is.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Day 38
The Holy week has begun and the Sacrifice has been made. I will go through this week with as little about me as I can. This week is about the greatest story ever lived. I Feel this action of Love to the very core of my person and I will not ruin it for you by putting me in the center of it. The story speaks for itself and I will speak the truth as I know it to be.
I wish that I could despise the passover crowds from this story,but I can't. I think they are stupid but when the truth is told I am sure that I would have been right there that day and then when they called for Jesus' death. I think most Christian's fight the battle of I would not have done that to Jesus, but we did. Our sin past, present and future where there calling for His death. The Jewish leaders can not be blamed for it all just as the Roman leaders can't be absolved of all guilt. So what that Pilot washed his hands did he not give the people what they wanted. Yes he did. Didn't the Jewish leaders know the history that was being fulfilled. Sure they did, but this man was to simple, plain, ordinary, and so not what they were looking for.
A King not rule on earth but rule over all. Jesus chose to do as the Father asked.
I wish that I could despise the passover crowds from this story,but I can't. I think they are stupid but when the truth is told I am sure that I would have been right there that day and then when they called for Jesus' death. I think most Christian's fight the battle of I would not have done that to Jesus, but we did. Our sin past, present and future where there calling for His death. The Jewish leaders can not be blamed for it all just as the Roman leaders can't be absolved of all guilt. So what that Pilot washed his hands did he not give the people what they wanted. Yes he did. Didn't the Jewish leaders know the history that was being fulfilled. Sure they did, but this man was to simple, plain, ordinary, and so not what they were looking for.
A King not rule on earth but rule over all. Jesus chose to do as the Father asked.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Day 36 and 37
Have you ever just needed a good cry? Well I think that is just what I need. These last 2 weeks I have been so weepy and I have not been able to just cry. I don't want to cry every day just one good cry will take care of it.
Today for instance They showed some clips from the Passion and I could feel the gush of tears coming, but nope just little pools of tears sitting on the edge, not even enough to wipe. Sad! One should be able to cry when she sees the crucifixion of the Lord. I mean come on is there anything more moving than to know that Jesus was separated from his father and died for us, and this was all planed before the foundation of the world. I don't think so. Where are the tears and why won't they come?
On to the "dark side." I have come up the a very weird and unexplained desire to curse. I know that I look like a women who curses on a regular bases but I quit cussing back in Jr high. But now I feel the need to add @##$$)*()#(# when I am talking. Of course I don't but I sure want to.
Here is what we know so far about the fast. It has been like a deep nasty pimple you get right before prom. It will pop but it just keeps refilling with more gunk. It has to be treated. Will it leave a scar most likely, but was there any other choice? Not really because Prom is just a few days away and you Can Not go to prom with a zit!
If you don't know know what to do with this blog that's fine just file it under; A weepy warped Wendy. Take heart and know that when you go through this someone understands, and if anyone asks you what in the world is wrong with Wendy just tell them " Oh it is just so heart braking she has "adult on set Turrets Syndrome" they are hoping it is temporary"
May you get a blessing today because I know for sure you didn't get it from this blog!
Today for instance They showed some clips from the Passion and I could feel the gush of tears coming, but nope just little pools of tears sitting on the edge, not even enough to wipe. Sad! One should be able to cry when she sees the crucifixion of the Lord. I mean come on is there anything more moving than to know that Jesus was separated from his father and died for us, and this was all planed before the foundation of the world. I don't think so. Where are the tears and why won't they come?
On to the "dark side." I have come up the a very weird and unexplained desire to curse. I know that I look like a women who curses on a regular bases but I quit cussing back in Jr high. But now I feel the need to add @##$$)*()#(# when I am talking. Of course I don't but I sure want to.
Here is what we know so far about the fast. It has been like a deep nasty pimple you get right before prom. It will pop but it just keeps refilling with more gunk. It has to be treated. Will it leave a scar most likely, but was there any other choice? Not really because Prom is just a few days away and you Can Not go to prom with a zit!
If you don't know know what to do with this blog that's fine just file it under; A weepy warped Wendy. Take heart and know that when you go through this someone understands, and if anyone asks you what in the world is wrong with Wendy just tell them " Oh it is just so heart braking she has "adult on set Turrets Syndrome" they are hoping it is temporary"
May you get a blessing today because I know for sure you didn't get it from this blog!
Friday, March 26, 2010
Day 35
Traveling on the Fast is a thrill. All I am going to say is You have to be prepared! Bring your own food if you can and accept what you can not change. Eat at Wendy's they have plan potatoes and salad. I found an all natural no sugar added fruit drink at a QT they also had fresh fruit that looked good but I had already eaten a banana. They zoo let you bring in your own food so that would not have been a problem.
Not real sure what I would have done if would have been along trip but I assume creative eating would have been involved and a few embarrassing moments for the kids. "Yes may I have that chicken salad with no chicken,cheese, eggs or dressing and please send me the chicken and veggies with no chicken and fun stuff on the veggies just plain will be fine." Can't you just see my family melt into a puddle under the table. Yep, I would win that game of last man standing ;)
Look into the places you will be going and see what is allowed. It is much easier to stay home and fix your own. But lets face it you can not spend your entire fast in a bubble. Oh you can try, but life is not lived in a bubble and neither therefore can your fast.
There is one thing I really love and find very funny. God has put in an override on my brain and it does not bother me in lest to sit holding a bag of burger and fries and a bag full of cheesecake from the Cheesecake Factory at my feet. I couldn't even smell them. I did look at them and they looked nice, but ok they were just cheesecakes. No biggie, not my power but His.
My favorite thing that happened on the way home today was when I asked Brandon,who gave up pizza for lent, what if we call in Guido's pizza on a way home. His response "Yeah that would be great it doesn't bother me if they eat Pizza" LOVE IT !!!! Proud momma
Not real sure what I would have done if would have been along trip but I assume creative eating would have been involved and a few embarrassing moments for the kids. "Yes may I have that chicken salad with no chicken,cheese, eggs or dressing and please send me the chicken and veggies with no chicken and fun stuff on the veggies just plain will be fine." Can't you just see my family melt into a puddle under the table. Yep, I would win that game of last man standing ;)
Look into the places you will be going and see what is allowed. It is much easier to stay home and fix your own. But lets face it you can not spend your entire fast in a bubble. Oh you can try, but life is not lived in a bubble and neither therefore can your fast.
There is one thing I really love and find very funny. God has put in an override on my brain and it does not bother me in lest to sit holding a bag of burger and fries and a bag full of cheesecake from the Cheesecake Factory at my feet. I couldn't even smell them. I did look at them and they looked nice, but ok they were just cheesecakes. No biggie, not my power but His.
My favorite thing that happened on the way home today was when I asked Brandon,who gave up pizza for lent, what if we call in Guido's pizza on a way home. His response "Yeah that would be great it doesn't bother me if they eat Pizza" LOVE IT !!!! Proud momma
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Day 34
Is there anything more refreshing for ones soul than to sit and chat with a girl friend. The only down side was the visit was to short to catch up on 3 months of spiritual growth and girl chat.
I write this with the wonder of what is to come both long and short term of this fast. I am praying that life does not go back to the old norm. I have begun to have a more constant quite time and I know when I have not had it nor have enough of it.
This verse says it all; Proverbs 25 28 Like a city whose walls are broken down is a man who lacks self-control.
As the fast is beginning wind down I want to share some of the AH Ha moments I have had.
Self- control is very important but giving yourself over into God's hand is most important. A fast can not be done in my own power. If it were in my own power I would have consumed all of my families food and smiled while doing it.
Being humbled is painful (sometimes the picking up is not much better). There is hope that being brought low will draw you closer to God.
I write this with the wonder of what is to come both long and short term of this fast. I am praying that life does not go back to the old norm. I have begun to have a more constant quite time and I know when I have not had it nor have enough of it.
This verse says it all; Proverbs 25 28 Like a city whose walls are broken down is a man who lacks self-control.
As the fast is beginning wind down I want to share some of the AH Ha moments I have had.
Self- control is very important but giving yourself over into God's hand is most important. A fast can not be done in my own power. If it were in my own power I would have consumed all of my families food and smiled while doing it.
Being humbled is painful (sometimes the picking up is not much better). There is hope that being brought low will draw you closer to God.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
day 33
If this day were to have happened at any other time my might seek medical add for bipolar disorder. But I think unreleased stress, post hormonal let down and Spring break melt down all came into the perfect storm of crazy momma gonna flip out. If there were ever a day that might have deserved a chocolate treat it was today. I believe that I will have a fruit salad and call it a day.
I Pressed on and walked through the valley of the shadow of near death(theirs not mine). Is it Monday yet?
I Pressed on and walked through the valley of the shadow of near death(theirs not mine). Is it Monday yet?
Monday, March 22, 2010
day 32
I am pretty sure that having children home for spring break makes me hungry. I have be starved all day. New lesson avoid stress and spring brake for next fast. SO I guess I will be living in a bubble if I do this again.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
days 30 and 31
Saturday
My brother and his family came into town and it was really good to see them.
However we had to deal with the going out to eat thing, which in it's self is not hard except that I have not told my mother that I am fasting. She would not get it! You should have see her eyes light up when she herd I gave up sweets. You could almost hear the "Thank the Lord she's going on a diet" she was shouting in her head. There are many times when all you can do with her is just go on and trust me I have just gone on a lot.
But at last it started snowing and we went home, so another bullet was dodged.
Sunday
Well today for the first time in 30 days I let someone else cook my food.I got a veggie lo main I do not want to know all that was in it. Oh I was so excited to not have to cook my own food but the heavy feeling 2 hours later is not worth it. I can tell you for sure that going back to real food is not going to be as easy as I have longed and dreamed about. I think that I will have to just remain a sniffer and nibbler for the rest of my life. So there you have it take out not so good for tummy.
My brother and his family came into town and it was really good to see them.
However we had to deal with the going out to eat thing, which in it's self is not hard except that I have not told my mother that I am fasting. She would not get it! You should have see her eyes light up when she herd I gave up sweets. You could almost hear the "Thank the Lord she's going on a diet" she was shouting in her head. There are many times when all you can do with her is just go on and trust me I have just gone on a lot.
But at last it started snowing and we went home, so another bullet was dodged.
Sunday
Well today for the first time in 30 days I let someone else cook my food.I got a veggie lo main I do not want to know all that was in it. Oh I was so excited to not have to cook my own food but the heavy feeling 2 hours later is not worth it. I can tell you for sure that going back to real food is not going to be as easy as I have longed and dreamed about. I think that I will have to just remain a sniffer and nibbler for the rest of my life. So there you have it take out not so good for tummy.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Day 29
Well you would think that the democrats would have already passed a law to prohibit a person from having 2 stinky weeks in a row. You know life, liberty and the pursuit of selfishness.
Have you ever felt that your life was a sad narrative straight out of of a book. As you read you think to yourself are these morons really going to do this, they aren't thinking. And yet they do and it makes there life very very miserable.
Well you are reading about the poster child for stupid thinking. It is truly amazing that a person who claims to be a follower of Christ can not and most likely refused to take captive every thought and went headlong into stupid and destructive self talk. Did it help anything NOPE! it did not, it did more harm than good.
So, Next week will be more prayerful and less stupid. There are apx. 2 weeks left on the fast and there is a growing feeling, I will not say fear because that's not what it is, that my food life post fast will be a failure. I do not want to go back to eating the way that I was. Life is harder and but at the same time it feels better and more successful.
Have you ever felt that your life was a sad narrative straight out of of a book. As you read you think to yourself are these morons really going to do this, they aren't thinking. And yet they do and it makes there life very very miserable.
Well you are reading about the poster child for stupid thinking. It is truly amazing that a person who claims to be a follower of Christ can not and most likely refused to take captive every thought and went headlong into stupid and destructive self talk. Did it help anything NOPE! it did not, it did more harm than good.
So, Next week will be more prayerful and less stupid. There are apx. 2 weeks left on the fast and there is a growing feeling, I will not say fear because that's not what it is, that my food life post fast will be a failure. I do not want to go back to eating the way that I was. Life is harder and but at the same time it feels better and more successful.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Day 27
I had a funny thought yesterday in regards to food, I think I am a lot like Scarlett O'Hara "tomorrow is another day." So true,but another day of cookies and fatty stuff adds up to lots of another days. I think you have to come to a conclusion that yes tomorrow is a new day but you still have to pay yesterdays bills.
Yesterdays Proverbs 16
3 Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.
16 How much better to get wisdom than gold,
to choose understanding rather than silver!
17 The highway of the upright avoids evil;
he who guards his way guards his life.
18 Pride goes before destruction,
a haughty spirit before a fall.
19 Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed
than to share plunder with the proud.
20 Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers,
and blessed is he who trusts in the LORD.
21 The wise in heart are called discerning,
and pleasant words promote instruction. [a]
22 Understanding is a fountain of life to those who have it,
but folly brings punishment to fools.
23 A wise man's heart guides his mouth,
and his lips promote instruction. [b]
24 Pleasant words are a honeycomb,
sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.
25 There is a way that seems right to a man,
but in the end it leads to death.
26 The laborer's appetite works for him;
his hunger drives him on.
Yesterdays Proverbs 16
3 Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.
16 How much better to get wisdom than gold,
to choose understanding rather than silver!
17 The highway of the upright avoids evil;
he who guards his way guards his life.
18 Pride goes before destruction,
a haughty spirit before a fall.
19 Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed
than to share plunder with the proud.
20 Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers,
and blessed is he who trusts in the LORD.
21 The wise in heart are called discerning,
and pleasant words promote instruction. [a]
22 Understanding is a fountain of life to those who have it,
but folly brings punishment to fools.
23 A wise man's heart guides his mouth,
and his lips promote instruction. [b]
24 Pleasant words are a honeycomb,
sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.
25 There is a way that seems right to a man,
but in the end it leads to death.
26 The laborer's appetite works for him;
his hunger drives him on.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Day 26
Lunch
Another lesson learned: soy milk and soy cheese does not a good mac and cheese make. Still not near as bad as the oatmeal but yuck. I will not try this mess again.
On a other note it has been 5 days since I last weighted and I have now lost 20 lbs on the fast but more importantly I have gained a new way to look at food.
Another lesson learned: soy milk and soy cheese does not a good mac and cheese make. Still not near as bad as the oatmeal but yuck. I will not try this mess again.
On a other note it has been 5 days since I last weighted and I have now lost 20 lbs on the fast but more importantly I have gained a new way to look at food.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Day 24
The shadows. The Darkness. Tenebrae! My favorite pre Easter celebration. In one hour you go through the last week of Jesus life. It is a very emotional service and brings many things into focus, My salvation was gained only through His death. A death that His Father could not look upon.
Grief,Sadness and JoY all in one moment. WOW
Grief,Sadness and JoY all in one moment. WOW
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Days 22-23
These past few days have been pitiful, aggravating,infuriating and frankly almost impossible to take the control of the mind and heart. Fighting those old demons of anger, fear and doubt. It is so disheartening to truly believe you have conquered stuff only to have it to rear it's ugly head when you lest expect and or want it.
To say focused on God and to let him lead the healing has not gone well for me. The battle field has been the mind and I have never been able to turn it off. I am sure that some day I am going to wish to have my mind back but for this past week I really have wished it would leave me. I will pick up the pieces that is this sorry week and move on to the next.
I will : 1 Peter 1:13
Wherefore girding up the loins of your mind, be sober and set your hope perfectly on the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; (ASB)
Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. (NIV)
Wherefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; (KJ)
Amen
To say focused on God and to let him lead the healing has not gone well for me. The battle field has been the mind and I have never been able to turn it off. I am sure that some day I am going to wish to have my mind back but for this past week I really have wished it would leave me. I will pick up the pieces that is this sorry week and move on to the next.
I will : 1 Peter 1:13
Wherefore girding up the loins of your mind, be sober and set your hope perfectly on the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; (ASB)
Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. (NIV)
Wherefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ; (KJ)
Amen
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Day 21
If I were on the normal 21 day Daniel fast today would be my last day, but I have 19 more days to go.
Change of plans
I was so struck by my emptiness of Sunday's nonspiritual no food fast, that I have wondered what it would be like to be on a spiritual no food fast and to have that emptiness fill in with God. I know with out a doubt that I am to do a no food fast for three days. I feel the call to be broken and humbled before the LORD.
Although I am already on a fast I feel that 2 specific areas of my life need more concentrated prayer and that this fast needs to be done so that I am completely humbled and ready to hear what God has to say.
Oh the anticipation!
Change of plans
I was so struck by my emptiness of Sunday's nonspiritual no food fast, that I have wondered what it would be like to be on a spiritual no food fast and to have that emptiness fill in with God. I know with out a doubt that I am to do a no food fast for three days. I feel the call to be broken and humbled before the LORD.
Although I am already on a fast I feel that 2 specific areas of my life need more concentrated prayer and that this fast needs to be done so that I am completely humbled and ready to hear what God has to say.
Oh the anticipation!
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Day 20
Baught a book on fasting and I have found it very interesting. The author brings up some very good points for fasting, like we as believers are called to fast and satan hates it when we fast. I really liked his chapter on conquering king stomach. However I am a little concerned with the emphasis on "prosperity."
I know that when you pray you should pray with the expectation that your prayers are answered. But should we really go into a fast thinking we are going to Get the extra goodies like money, houses,cars from God when the fast is over? I just can't make myself believe that is the it is supposed to happen. May be I am not embracing James 4:2 you have not because you ask not. The author seems to believe that there are long term and far reaching effects of a fast, these are God rewards for being obedient.
I prayerfully will wait and see what comes of my fast.
I know that when you pray you should pray with the expectation that your prayers are answered. But should we really go into a fast thinking we are going to Get the extra goodies like money, houses,cars from God when the fast is over? I just can't make myself believe that is the it is supposed to happen. May be I am not embracing James 4:2 you have not because you ask not. The author seems to believe that there are long term and far reaching effects of a fast, these are God rewards for being obedient.
I prayerfully will wait and see what comes of my fast.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Day 19
Today's 1st topic: Lessons Learned
1. I how know why people have so much space for God to fill up when they are on a water only fast. There is nothing else in there.
2. Never eat trail mix(nuts) on a totally fasted stomach. I am talkin til ta world and on a school bus to boot. I was praying a lot!
3. Water only Fasting makes one weepy. If it has to go somewhere I guess out the eyes is as good as any place.
4. One can lose 6 pounds over night on a H2O Fast.
5. As horrible as it sounds you can lose the desire to eat.
Tonight I ate like a queen. A hamburger smoothered in mushrooms,onion and cheese and French Fries.
Oh Man.
Do not fear the burger wasn't a real burger and the cheese wasn't real cheese. Oy for Soy ! The burger was ok, the cheese was ha hum let's just say it was there to give the patty color.
Loved the recipe on the cheese.
Mac and cheese
Stir cheese and Soy milk into cooked pasta.
yummy! and the sad thing this is my first thought is "Oh I could so put this over some Whole Wheat noodles and have mac and cheese."
How far the mighty have fallen
2nd Topic: Well shut my mouth!
Did you know that God shut Ezekiel mouth. Ezekiel could only speak when God opened his mouth and spoke for him.
How I wish God would shut my mouth, and only open it when it needs to be opened.
Ezekiel 3:26-27
26 I will make your tongue stick to the roof of your mouth so that you will be silent and unable to rebuke them, though they are a rebellious house. 27 But when I speak to you, I will open your mouth and you shall say to them, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says.' Whoever will listen let him listen, and whoever will refuse let him refuse; for they are a rebellious house.
1. I how know why people have so much space for God to fill up when they are on a water only fast. There is nothing else in there.
2. Never eat trail mix(nuts) on a totally fasted stomach. I am talkin til ta world and on a school bus to boot. I was praying a lot!
3. Water only Fasting makes one weepy. If it has to go somewhere I guess out the eyes is as good as any place.
4. One can lose 6 pounds over night on a H2O Fast.
5. As horrible as it sounds you can lose the desire to eat.
Tonight I ate like a queen. A hamburger smoothered in mushrooms,onion and cheese and French Fries.
Oh Man.
Do not fear the burger wasn't a real burger and the cheese wasn't real cheese. Oy for Soy ! The burger was ok, the cheese was ha hum let's just say it was there to give the patty color.
Loved the recipe on the cheese.
Mac and cheese
Stir cheese and Soy milk into cooked pasta.
yummy! and the sad thing this is my first thought is "Oh I could so put this over some Whole Wheat noodles and have mac and cheese."
How far the mighty have fallen
2nd Topic: Well shut my mouth!
Did you know that God shut Ezekiel mouth. Ezekiel could only speak when God opened his mouth and spoke for him.
How I wish God would shut my mouth, and only open it when it needs to be opened.
Ezekiel 3:26-27
26 I will make your tongue stick to the roof of your mouth so that you will be silent and unable to rebuke them, though they are a rebellious house. 27 But when I speak to you, I will open your mouth and you shall say to them, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says.' Whoever will listen let him listen, and whoever will refuse let him refuse; for they are a rebellious house.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Day 18
For no particular spiritual reason I have fasted form everything but water today. I just wasn't hungry and then it sorta became "I wonder if I could do with out food today" and I did. I am very surprised that it wasn't a big deal. Guess the Lesson will be revealed later.
One thing I know is this: I learned that I have more self-control than I thought. Would have to assume that the mule in me can come out in the more important things and not just the petty.
One thing I know is this: I learned that I have more self-control than I thought. Would have to assume that the mule in me can come out in the more important things and not just the petty.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Morning of day 17
Today is my 17 wedding anniversary. The road has had lots of hills and curves. Is there anything more fun than going 200mph on a bicycle built for 2? I think not.
What an anniversary NO good food, sick kid even though he is feeling better, early morning trip for Jason to OK to drop off Kathryn for the BLAST retreat and a B-ball game @ 2 that Brandon won't be playing in. Sounds like fun.
What an anniversary NO good food, sick kid even though he is feeling better, early morning trip for Jason to OK to drop off Kathryn for the BLAST retreat and a B-ball game @ 2 that Brandon won't be playing in. Sounds like fun.
Day 16
Brandon asked "Mom how long we had been on Lent? Like a month?" Nope son you have been on Lent for 16 days. "Really I think it has been a month." I guess these past few days have been really hard without his pizza.
Today I got to make up for lost sleep and slept all the way through lunch. I ate twice today breakfast and supper and life was good.
Look forward to Easter. It is my favorite holiday. I am always weepy during this time of get sorrow. Life gets a new perspective. LOVE IT!!
Today I got to make up for lost sleep and slept all the way through lunch. I ate twice today breakfast and supper and life was good.
Look forward to Easter. It is my favorite holiday. I am always weepy during this time of get sorrow. Life gets a new perspective. LOVE IT!!
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Day 15
Today was very interesting. After 2 days of "starving to death" I was not really hungry.
Food was not the focus today.
Brandon got sick and was in great pain for several hours throwing up many many times. He was very upset that he was sick and could not understand why he was the one to be sick (me either he his a pain when he is sick and he missed the toilet every time which makes momma mad). In the middle of the pain he looks at me " Momma I have prayed and prayed and the pain won't go away." Teaching moment at 2am you have got to be kidding me.
God does not promise no pain only that He will be with us while we endure the pain. That is a ruff lesson to learn in the middle of the night or anytime.
Food was not the focus today.
Brandon got sick and was in great pain for several hours throwing up many many times. He was very upset that he was sick and could not understand why he was the one to be sick (me either he his a pain when he is sick and he missed the toilet every time which makes momma mad). In the middle of the pain he looks at me " Momma I have prayed and prayed and the pain won't go away." Teaching moment at 2am you have got to be kidding me.
God does not promise no pain only that He will be with us while we endure the pain. That is a ruff lesson to learn in the middle of the night or anytime.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Day 14
If yesterday was a " bump the wall moment" than today was like driving 90 mph with the brakes going out and a sharp turn leading the I need meat hi-way. I wanted to have some meat and just about any meat would do.
These past two days have been a little embarrassing for me.
I wish I understood why 14 days into this thing I would start craving stuff I had detoxed from already. Honestly,these past two days have been a little embarrassing for me. Where is my faith? Why am I not strong enough to keep these desire at bay?
The challenge of this fast was to, Wait for it, wait for it...... to give all my stuff to God and let Him work things out and learn what He wanted me to learn. Today I learned that my weakness comes in the form of my arrogance. Arrogance of success, I have not longed for a great many things since the "I love Sugar" let down. I like veggies and veggies like me so the trial has not been that bad, and I had to face I got a little full of my ability to endure the challenge.
These past two days where not moments I wanted to go through because I was sure that I was past this temptation. I am not above temptation! As a matter of fact facing temptation is the only thing that brings change. Standing up to temptation brings Strength. my Strength comes from the LORD. He is my strength and He hides me in the cliffs of His love.
These past two days have been a little embarrassing for me.
I wish I understood why 14 days into this thing I would start craving stuff I had detoxed from already. Honestly,these past two days have been a little embarrassing for me. Where is my faith? Why am I not strong enough to keep these desire at bay?
The challenge of this fast was to, Wait for it, wait for it...... to give all my stuff to God and let Him work things out and learn what He wanted me to learn. Today I learned that my weakness comes in the form of my arrogance. Arrogance of success, I have not longed for a great many things since the "I love Sugar" let down. I like veggies and veggies like me so the trial has not been that bad, and I had to face I got a little full of my ability to endure the challenge.
These past two days where not moments I wanted to go through because I was sure that I was past this temptation. I am not above temptation! As a matter of fact facing temptation is the only thing that brings change. Standing up to temptation brings Strength. my Strength comes from the LORD. He is my strength and He hides me in the cliffs of His love.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Day 13
Well folks I bumped the wall tonight. I had good supper I ate all that I could but by 9 I was So hungry. I wanted a bowl of cereal full to the rim with milk.Oh cold glorious milk and sugar I could just taste it. Then as I walked by the trash can I got a whiff of the double cheese burger that Jason had for supper and got a little weak in the knees.
Yep this is the moment! To pass or fail, sink or swim. So I took my thoughts captive, gave my self a good talking to, had a few nuts and drank 2 mugs of Hot water waited for the clothes to wash then I went to bed.
Be on guard, passions and desires are deeply rooted. They can be mastered but not if they are given free reign over your life.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight. [a]
Proverbs 3:5-6
Yep this is the moment! To pass or fail, sink or swim. So I took my thoughts captive, gave my self a good talking to, had a few nuts and drank 2 mugs of Hot water waited for the clothes to wash then I went to bed.
Be on guard, passions and desires are deeply rooted. They can be mastered but not if they are given free reign over your life.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight. [a]
Proverbs 3:5-6
Monday, March 1, 2010
Day 12
Have you ever had one of those days where you just don't need and or want to talk? Today was one of those days. I was not mad at anyone, nothing made overly irritated, I wasn't pouting about not getting my way. I simply did not need to talk. I did spend a great deal of time thinking about Sunday's lesson of Jesus at the temple. That lesson really moved my thoughts to God's glory and me being His temple. Great lesson.
One has to feel sorry for a husband on those days, Jason asked me 2-3 time if I was okay, if I was upset about anything or was I mad at him. By the third time I wanted to go to the bathroom and look to see if I had my mad face on. One has to assume that my mood looked more like moodyness than " I am just have a quite day today". It was funny though to see what a quite day does to those around you. I have be very reflective and growing in Christ because " I did not go there". I have however gone there many time before in heart and mind.. I have often wanted to do this even dreamed about doing these thing:
1. I would just looked at Jason and said "you figure it out" Now that would be funny not nice but funny.
2.Print out a sign to ware around my neck that says "Warning I just feel quite today I am fine an I love you I simply don't feel the need to say much today. No I am not mad, ticked off or other wise upset, but if you keep asking me if I am okay I will become mad, ticked off or otherwise upset."
3.And just to keep him off balance show him the "The man's guide book to a long and happy marriage" page 1 with wives everything is subject to change so just to be safe you should make supper and then rub her feet.
Yes Friends I have gone there in my mind but I did not go there today so there is Hope. Hope for a future that is less about me.
One has to feel sorry for a husband on those days, Jason asked me 2-3 time if I was okay, if I was upset about anything or was I mad at him. By the third time I wanted to go to the bathroom and look to see if I had my mad face on. One has to assume that my mood looked more like moodyness than " I am just have a quite day today". It was funny though to see what a quite day does to those around you. I have be very reflective and growing in Christ because " I did not go there". I have however gone there many time before in heart and mind.. I have often wanted to do this even dreamed about doing these thing:
1. I would just looked at Jason and said "you figure it out" Now that would be funny not nice but funny.
2.Print out a sign to ware around my neck that says "Warning I just feel quite today I am fine an I love you I simply don't feel the need to say much today. No I am not mad, ticked off or other wise upset, but if you keep asking me if I am okay I will become mad, ticked off or otherwise upset."
3.And just to keep him off balance show him the "The man's guide book to a long and happy marriage" page 1 with wives everything is subject to change so just to be safe you should make supper and then rub her feet.
Yes Friends I have gone there in my mind but I did not go there today so there is Hope. Hope for a future that is less about me.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
day 11
Sunday
I learned two things today. The first, I have to eat a little something at breakfast and I need to drink more water to keep me full during the day.
The second thing I learned was this I do not know my Bible very well. We are studying the book of John in big church and the lesson today was Jesus going into the temple and his anger over what was going on. Gary lead us to Ezekiel and the Glory of the Lord leaving the temple because of the sin of men and a nation.
I find it very scary that in all my years in church I have never to my knowledge be taught any thing out of Ezekiel. What a powerful book. My favorite verses in chapter 1:25-28
25 Then there came a voice from above the expanse over their heads as they stood with lowered wings. 26 Above the expanse over their heads was what looked like a throne of sapphire, [f] and high above on the throne was a figure like that of a man. 27 I saw that from what appeared to be his waist up he looked like glowing metal, as if full of fire, and that from there down he looked like fire; and brilliant light surrounded him. 28 Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him.
This was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD. When I saw it, I fell facedown, and I heard the voice of one speaking.
Do you realize that until Jesus went into that temple the Glory of the LORD had not been there since His Glory left it in the book of Ezekiel and that God's Glory would never again be put back into a temple made of stone but instead would be in men. See John 2:12-24
12After this he went down to Capernaum with his mother and brothers and his disciples. There they stayed for a few days.
13When it was almost time for the Jewish Passover, Jesus went up to Jerusalem. 14In the temple courts he found men selling cattle, sheep and doves, and others sitting at tables exchanging money. 15So he made a whip out of cords, and drove all from the temple area, both sheep and cattle; he scattered the coins of the money changers and overturned their tables. 16To those who sold doves he said, "Get these out of here! How dare you turn my Father's house into a market!"
17His disciples remembered that it is written: "Zeal for your house will consume me."[b]
18Then the Jews demanded of him, "What miraculous sign can you show us to prove your authority to do all this?"
19Jesus answered them, "Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days."
20The Jews replied, "It has taken forty-six years to build this temple, and you are going to raise it in three days?" 21But the temple he had spoken of was his body. 22After he was raised from the dead, his disciples recalled what he had said. Then they believed the Scripture and the words that Jesus had spoken.
23Now while he was in Jerusalem at the Passover Feast, many people saw the miraculous signs he was doing and believed in his name.[c] 24But Jesus would not entrust himself to them, for he knew all men. 25He did not need man's testimony about man, for he knew what was in a man.
Reading all this scriptures made we think did the Jews even know that God's presences was gone from the Holy of Holies? Did they even care? I don't think they did but I also think they're ignorant for all the things they have done to get to this place where they did not care if God's presences was there or not.
But you see the distance in time and an good bit of holier than thou self righteousness has numbed me to the truth that We the people are no better. I am the Temple of the Living God and His Glory is within me and I am to be a living sacrifice for Him. Sin is sin and redemption is grace no matter when in history it occurs.
I learned two things today. The first, I have to eat a little something at breakfast and I need to drink more water to keep me full during the day.
The second thing I learned was this I do not know my Bible very well. We are studying the book of John in big church and the lesson today was Jesus going into the temple and his anger over what was going on. Gary lead us to Ezekiel and the Glory of the Lord leaving the temple because of the sin of men and a nation.
I find it very scary that in all my years in church I have never to my knowledge be taught any thing out of Ezekiel. What a powerful book. My favorite verses in chapter 1:25-28
25 Then there came a voice from above the expanse over their heads as they stood with lowered wings. 26 Above the expanse over their heads was what looked like a throne of sapphire, [f] and high above on the throne was a figure like that of a man. 27 I saw that from what appeared to be his waist up he looked like glowing metal, as if full of fire, and that from there down he looked like fire; and brilliant light surrounded him. 28 Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him.
This was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD. When I saw it, I fell facedown, and I heard the voice of one speaking.
Do you realize that until Jesus went into that temple the Glory of the LORD had not been there since His Glory left it in the book of Ezekiel and that God's Glory would never again be put back into a temple made of stone but instead would be in men. See John 2:12-24
12After this he went down to Capernaum with his mother and brothers and his disciples. There they stayed for a few days.
13When it was almost time for the Jewish Passover, Jesus went up to Jerusalem. 14In the temple courts he found men selling cattle, sheep and doves, and others sitting at tables exchanging money. 15So he made a whip out of cords, and drove all from the temple area, both sheep and cattle; he scattered the coins of the money changers and overturned their tables. 16To those who sold doves he said, "Get these out of here! How dare you turn my Father's house into a market!"
17His disciples remembered that it is written: "Zeal for your house will consume me."[b]
18Then the Jews demanded of him, "What miraculous sign can you show us to prove your authority to do all this?"
19Jesus answered them, "Destroy this temple, and I will raise it again in three days."
20The Jews replied, "It has taken forty-six years to build this temple, and you are going to raise it in three days?" 21But the temple he had spoken of was his body. 22After he was raised from the dead, his disciples recalled what he had said. Then they believed the Scripture and the words that Jesus had spoken.
23Now while he was in Jerusalem at the Passover Feast, many people saw the miraculous signs he was doing and believed in his name.[c] 24But Jesus would not entrust himself to them, for he knew all men. 25He did not need man's testimony about man, for he knew what was in a man.
Reading all this scriptures made we think did the Jews even know that God's presences was gone from the Holy of Holies? Did they even care? I don't think they did but I also think they're ignorant for all the things they have done to get to this place where they did not care if God's presences was there or not.
But you see the distance in time and an good bit of holier than thou self righteousness has numbed me to the truth that We the people are no better. I am the Temple of the Living God and His Glory is within me and I am to be a living sacrifice for Him. Sin is sin and redemption is grace no matter when in history it occurs.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Days 9 and 10
I am putting two days together because these last two days were you know kinda well, let's just say it, not interesting, boring, lacking in ahha moments.
Friday did have a I would think almost sad moment. I forgot to eat a meal. I remembered sitting at the kid's school "Oh you didn't eat breakfast" Well crap when did I fall this far, you know fat girls don't miss many meals and we sure don't forget to eat them that is a totally sick skinny girl thing to do.
I would have to guess That is God moving in and the desire to fill up moving somewhere else.
Just for kicks I weighed on Tuesday or Wednesday and the I weighed again Friday and I was down 6 lbs. Wow, now I have to make sure that this does not become ( in my mind) a diet. This is about fasting for LIFE not weight.
Saturday
Early morning basketball had to be there a 7:30 yawn!!!! and coming off a late night 12:30am makes for a long day add into that a search for shower gift, 2 hour volleyball practice (I am Jason helper coach) go to shower,then drive to Bentonville to visit in laws and then fix my supper and I am the only one left standing. Kinda funny but does make you wonder at what else will change for me. This is strange because I am without question the most tired person in our family and need the most rest. I did feel the need to rest today but not that "I have to crash now or some one will die kinda need". So that was really neat to know within my self that I made it on a LOT fewer calories today than I would normally intake and I made it through the day much better.
You want to know the biggest pain about not eating with everyone else is.It's the ease of just getting something quick to eat. I know the in laws don't know what to do with me and the fast because they felt weird eating with me sitting there with no food. I just don't have the desire to eat "food" so sitting with people eating food is not a problem. The problem is fixing stir fry a 9:30 at night. But I did and it was good so glad I made the effort.
Well I guess I was wrong the days weren't without some ah ha moments, they just weren't all spiritual.
Friday did have a I would think almost sad moment. I forgot to eat a meal. I remembered sitting at the kid's school "Oh you didn't eat breakfast" Well crap when did I fall this far, you know fat girls don't miss many meals and we sure don't forget to eat them that is a totally sick skinny girl thing to do.
I would have to guess That is God moving in and the desire to fill up moving somewhere else.
Just for kicks I weighed on Tuesday or Wednesday and the I weighed again Friday and I was down 6 lbs. Wow, now I have to make sure that this does not become ( in my mind) a diet. This is about fasting for LIFE not weight.
Saturday
Early morning basketball had to be there a 7:30 yawn!!!! and coming off a late night 12:30am makes for a long day add into that a search for shower gift, 2 hour volleyball practice (I am Jason helper coach) go to shower,then drive to Bentonville to visit in laws and then fix my supper and I am the only one left standing. Kinda funny but does make you wonder at what else will change for me. This is strange because I am without question the most tired person in our family and need the most rest. I did feel the need to rest today but not that "I have to crash now or some one will die kinda need". So that was really neat to know within my self that I made it on a LOT fewer calories today than I would normally intake and I made it through the day much better.
You want to know the biggest pain about not eating with everyone else is.It's the ease of just getting something quick to eat. I know the in laws don't know what to do with me and the fast because they felt weird eating with me sitting there with no food. I just don't have the desire to eat "food" so sitting with people eating food is not a problem. The problem is fixing stir fry a 9:30 at night. But I did and it was good so glad I made the effort.
Well I guess I was wrong the days weren't without some ah ha moments, they just weren't all spiritual.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Day Eight
Well the funny for today is this: Jason got home this morning. Yeah! Picked Kathryn up from school and asked about home work and HEHEHEHHE she had homework in very class. See God does love me!!!! So
I press on with the Fast because God is for me so who can be against me.
Heard this last night on KLRC you might need a little funny in your life.
This man had been married for many years to a very bossy women. He went away on a trip and got the nerve to see a therapist. The Therapist tells him he needs to take back his position as the "man" in the family.
So he gets home and tells his wife to fix him a 7 course meal, followed by a BIG dessert. After he ate his large meal, he told her to go draw him a bath so that he can relax. When this very happy well feed and relaxed man got out of his bath he told his wife to dress him. TO which she said "I am sorry dear I don't do that, that's the mortician's job."
I press on with the Fast because God is for me so who can be against me.
Heard this last night on KLRC you might need a little funny in your life.
This man had been married for many years to a very bossy women. He went away on a trip and got the nerve to see a therapist. The Therapist tells him he needs to take back his position as the "man" in the family.
So he gets home and tells his wife to fix him a 7 course meal, followed by a BIG dessert. After he ate his large meal, he told her to go draw him a bath so that he can relax. When this very happy well feed and relaxed man got out of his bath he told his wife to dress him. TO which she said "I am sorry dear I don't do that, that's the mortician's job."
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Day seven
I know that this fast is helping me already.
Jason has been in Houston and I am to be incharge of homework in his absence. Yeah me I don't do math well, I prayed to be delivered from this mess and I asked the Math teacher at Conferences last TH to not give home work next week while Jason "the math man was gone".
You know what? God kept that man form giving us homework. You would know this is a miracle because this man gives lots of homework every night. Not only did the math teacher not give homework, none of the other teachers did either.
All of my kids yes all three have been homework free all week. I am sayin Thank you Jesus and pass the fruits and veggies I can DO this!
Thought #2
What if this fast is really about the food? What if God is using this fast to bring my food under His control. What if I am told to never eat meat again? What if this is how I am to eat from now on. Ok but I will need milk. What if this mean I can eat Real people food again,but in a smaller and smarter way? See what I mean God in control of food changes everything and in every way that I live.
For right now in the first few days the fast is about the food and what God whats to reveal to me about what food means to me and what the absences of "desired" food can do to bring me to my knees.
Do I crave God presence and much as I crave food?
Nope I don't, but I will.
Jason has been in Houston and I am to be incharge of homework in his absence. Yeah me I don't do math well, I prayed to be delivered from this mess and I asked the Math teacher at Conferences last TH to not give home work next week while Jason "the math man was gone".
You know what? God kept that man form giving us homework. You would know this is a miracle because this man gives lots of homework every night. Not only did the math teacher not give homework, none of the other teachers did either.
All of my kids yes all three have been homework free all week. I am sayin Thank you Jesus and pass the fruits and veggies I can DO this!
Thought #2
What if this fast is really about the food? What if God is using this fast to bring my food under His control. What if I am told to never eat meat again? What if this is how I am to eat from now on. Ok but I will need milk. What if this mean I can eat Real people food again,but in a smaller and smarter way? See what I mean God in control of food changes everything and in every way that I live.
For right now in the first few days the fast is about the food and what God whats to reveal to me about what food means to me and what the absences of "desired" food can do to bring me to my knees.
Do I crave God presence and much as I crave food?
Nope I don't, but I will.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Day six
The day did progress into better food. Thankfully!
The question came to me out of the blue today; What do you want out of this fast?
Revelation and the answer is this.. I want to have a new relationship with food. I want to be full and not starving moments after the meal is over. I am praying that God will do something with me in this area.
Also I wondered when the first fast in the Bible was.
The first mention of a man fasting was in 2nd Samuel 12. David was fasting in hopes that God would "change His mind" and let son live. This is not the first fast though the Hebrews had practiced fasting over the years.
Moses fasted with God for Forty days Exodus 34:28 So he was there with the LORD forty days and forty nights; he did not eat bread or drink water. And he wrote on the tablets the words of the covenant, the Ten Commandments.
Do you know of any that are sooner than these? If you do please send them to me.
The question came to me out of the blue today; What do you want out of this fast?
Revelation and the answer is this.. I want to have a new relationship with food. I want to be full and not starving moments after the meal is over. I am praying that God will do something with me in this area.
Also I wondered when the first fast in the Bible was.
The first mention of a man fasting was in 2nd Samuel 12. David was fasting in hopes that God would "change His mind" and let son live. This is not the first fast though the Hebrews had practiced fasting over the years.
Moses fasted with God for Forty days Exodus 34:28 So he was there with the LORD forty days and forty nights; he did not eat bread or drink water. And he wrote on the tablets the words of the covenant, the Ten Commandments.
Do you know of any that are sooner than these? If you do please send them to me.
Morning News flash
New flash:
Oatmeal with out sugar is yucky,gross,bleckie,nasty, vomitous just plain ol wrong and to add insult to injury the banana I ate to get the nasty taste out of my mouth was hard and bruised. Wrong Wrong Wrong, guess I will be eating just plain fruit from now on.
Oatmeal with out sugar is yucky,gross,bleckie,nasty, vomitous just plain ol wrong and to add insult to injury the banana I ate to get the nasty taste out of my mouth was hard and bruised. Wrong Wrong Wrong, guess I will be eating just plain fruit from now on.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Day Five
A unique thing happened tonight I was fixing the kids supper and I need to see if the food was hot enough. I would normally just take a little nibble. Paused a moment to think how am I going to do this, then I asked Kathryn to take the bit instead. New moments very day.
Old habits die hard at least I didn't adhere to the Bill Clinton rule about not inhaling. " I did not eat I just inhaled" and quite frankly my bean soup and blue corn tortillas was better than the chicken, but I sure could have inhaled the rest of that mac and cheese.
I was reading about Daniel and Darius friendship today. I was so struck at Darius's distress of having to put Daniel in the lion's den. This is more than a king and his advisor. Here are the Versus in the NIV.
16 So the king gave the order, and they brought Daniel and threw him into the lions' den. The king said to Daniel, "May your God, whom you serve continually, rescue you!"
17 A stone was brought and placed over the mouth of the den, and the king sealed it with his own signet ring and with the rings of his nobles, so that Daniel's situation might not be changed. 18 Then the king returned to his palace and spent the night without eating and without any entertainment being brought to him. And he could not sleep.
19 At the first light of dawn, the king got up and hurried to the lions' den. 20 When he came near the den, he called to Daniel in an anguished voice, "Daniel, servant of the living God, has your God, whom you serve continually, been able to rescue you from the lions?"
21 Daniel answered, "O king, live forever! 22 My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions. They have not hurt me, because I was found innocent in his sight. Nor have I ever done any wrong before you, O king."
23 The king was overjoyed and gave orders to lift Daniel out of the den. And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.
24 At the king's command, the men who had falsely accused Daniel were brought in and thrown into the lions' den, along with their wives and children. And before they reached the floor of the den, the lions overpowered them and crushed all their bones.
resolve,Strength, and FAITH
I am tired and cold so I am going to take a hot shower, go to bed with no TV.
Goodnight friends
Old habits die hard at least I didn't adhere to the Bill Clinton rule about not inhaling. " I did not eat I just inhaled" and quite frankly my bean soup and blue corn tortillas was better than the chicken, but I sure could have inhaled the rest of that mac and cheese.
I was reading about Daniel and Darius friendship today. I was so struck at Darius's distress of having to put Daniel in the lion's den. This is more than a king and his advisor. Here are the Versus in the NIV.
16 So the king gave the order, and they brought Daniel and threw him into the lions' den. The king said to Daniel, "May your God, whom you serve continually, rescue you!"
17 A stone was brought and placed over the mouth of the den, and the king sealed it with his own signet ring and with the rings of his nobles, so that Daniel's situation might not be changed. 18 Then the king returned to his palace and spent the night without eating and without any entertainment being brought to him. And he could not sleep.
19 At the first light of dawn, the king got up and hurried to the lions' den. 20 When he came near the den, he called to Daniel in an anguished voice, "Daniel, servant of the living God, has your God, whom you serve continually, been able to rescue you from the lions?"
21 Daniel answered, "O king, live forever! 22 My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouths of the lions. They have not hurt me, because I was found innocent in his sight. Nor have I ever done any wrong before you, O king."
23 The king was overjoyed and gave orders to lift Daniel out of the den. And when Daniel was lifted from the den, no wound was found on him, because he had trusted in his God.
24 At the king's command, the men who had falsely accused Daniel were brought in and thrown into the lions' den, along with their wives and children. And before they reached the floor of the den, the lions overpowered them and crushed all their bones.
resolve,Strength, and FAITH
I am tired and cold so I am going to take a hot shower, go to bed with no TV.
Goodnight friends
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Day four
Stock tips: Buy Beano and gas X and dump the Exlax and metamucil. This is gona be a bumpy ride folks:0)
Thoughts on the day: I find it so amazing how much stronger I am when I function inside God's will for me. I don't have a problem watching other people eat food. I can tell that they feel strange eating in front of me.
DO NOT FEEL STRANGE, PLEASE EAT!!!! GOD has given me the strength to enjoy you and your food.
My Friend Amy Hannon gave me a recipe that I am going to fix tomorrow night.
Black bean soup
3 cans black beans
2 cans corn
1 can Rotel
1 clove garlic or to your taste
Dump the entire can in pot and cook
Thoughts on the day: I find it so amazing how much stronger I am when I function inside God's will for me. I don't have a problem watching other people eat food. I can tell that they feel strange eating in front of me.
DO NOT FEEL STRANGE, PLEASE EAT!!!! GOD has given me the strength to enjoy you and your food.
My Friend Amy Hannon gave me a recipe that I am going to fix tomorrow night.
Black bean soup
3 cans black beans
2 cans corn
1 can Rotel
1 clove garlic or to your taste
Dump the entire can in pot and cook
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Final thoughts on day 3
I have pressed on through this day.
Jason was eating some cheese and I felt like a little mouse all I needed to do was just get one little whiff.
I have gone to the movies and only had a water and a homemade snack of golden raisins dried apples sunflower seeds and macadamia nuts. That was really tasty. Did you know that dried apples are really ugly? They look like shriveled up ears. I even got to carry that huge tub of buttered corn for the kids and No I did not touch it.
I have had to struggle with the thought that I deserve to have a little something since the attack of women hood is up on me. What do I deserve really? Well a lot worse than cramps and eating homemade snacks at a movie.
I am guessing and Hopeful that as the toxins leave I will focus less on the have nots and more on how great the Father supplies for me.
Oh how I long for a glass of milk, or a slice of cheese, a blow of cereal would be oh so nice.
Jason was eating some cheese and I felt like a little mouse all I needed to do was just get one little whiff.
I have gone to the movies and only had a water and a homemade snack of golden raisins dried apples sunflower seeds and macadamia nuts. That was really tasty. Did you know that dried apples are really ugly? They look like shriveled up ears. I even got to carry that huge tub of buttered corn for the kids and No I did not touch it.
I have had to struggle with the thought that I deserve to have a little something since the attack of women hood is up on me. What do I deserve really? Well a lot worse than cramps and eating homemade snacks at a movie.
I am guessing and Hopeful that as the toxins leave I will focus less on the have nots and more on how great the Father supplies for me.
Oh how I long for a glass of milk, or a slice of cheese, a blow of cereal would be oh so nice.
morning of day 3
Well the day is staring off with a big bang. Two worlds are colliding: my women hood and the fast.
Have you watched Santa Clause 2? When Curtis says thedesantaficationprocesshasbegun. (the deSantafication process has begun. Well hello folks, the detoxification process has begun. Body aches and a few other shall we say inconvenient things.
I am fighting the desire to stay in bed with the covers over my head.
Have you watched Santa Clause 2? When Curtis says thedesantaficationprocesshasbegun. (the deSantafication process has begun. Well hello folks, the detoxification process has begun. Body aches and a few other shall we say inconvenient things.
I am fighting the desire to stay in bed with the covers over my head.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Day two
Day two has not been that bad I have been hungry but not starved. Lunch was great corn and black bean salad its was really good.
Supper was shall we interesting a baked potato with no good stuff, I did put zucchini and onions on it, bok choy and carrots on the side. It was good.
I am guessing that I had about 1000 cal today maybe less.
Guess I need more water. Is that possible ?
Many versus are going through my mind but the one that keepings coming up is Psalms 23 even though I walk thru the valley of the shadow of death.
Supper was shall we interesting a baked potato with no good stuff, I did put zucchini and onions on it, bok choy and carrots on the side. It was good.
I am guessing that I had about 1000 cal today maybe less.
Guess I need more water. Is that possible ?
Many versus are going through my mind but the one that keepings coming up is Psalms 23 even though I walk thru the valley of the shadow of death.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Day one
Today I start the Daniel Fast. We shall see what happens.
Well I know what happens:
Discovery 1: this day was not about God it was all about me and all my stuff.
Discovery 2: I like Sugar and that is very difficult since I can't have it on this fast. Have you ever tried to find food at the store that has no sugar or sugar subtitute or chemicals. Well let me tell you it is VERY HARD . I walked around wally world for over an hour trying to find food. I got a little depressed over my food choices. I think that I will have to ditch the some of my legalism when I seek food. I will have to pray and weigh the cost of a few sugars and chemicals in the whole contents of a prepackaged food.
I will not eat a bowl of sugar! I will not! But I hope that I can learn how to gag down an no sugar in anything frozen fruit smoothie. Just an FYI: Food this isn't ripe needs a little help. I will not add sugar but I will pray that God shows me where to find the sweet fruit.
I will take hart in the fact this too shall pass and give way less dependency on food. Today, however was not that day
Well I know what happens:
Discovery 1: this day was not about God it was all about me and all my stuff.
Discovery 2: I like Sugar and that is very difficult since I can't have it on this fast. Have you ever tried to find food at the store that has no sugar or sugar subtitute or chemicals. Well let me tell you it is VERY HARD . I walked around wally world for over an hour trying to find food. I got a little depressed over my food choices. I think that I will have to ditch the some of my legalism when I seek food. I will have to pray and weigh the cost of a few sugars and chemicals in the whole contents of a prepackaged food.
I will not eat a bowl of sugar! I will not! But I hope that I can learn how to gag down an no sugar in anything frozen fruit smoothie. Just an FYI: Food this isn't ripe needs a little help. I will not add sugar but I will pray that God shows me where to find the sweet fruit.
I will take hart in the fact this too shall pass and give way less dependency on food. Today, however was not that day
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